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Zobuhle
Him sitting there and eating as if he didn’t say that just irks me.
“ I did not tell Kabelo to cheat on me, i was under the impression that when one makes those vows. They know what they getting themselves into”
Mothlagodi: Did you ever raised the issue of infidelity with him?
Me: His a grown man, why should I tell him not to stick his balls in every whole that he sees.
Mothlagodi: well clearly we both on two different thinking paths.
He took a sip of his juice and I swear I almost choked on my own saliva
Zobuhle: You did not just say that!!!
Mothlagodi: let me tell you something, people treat you how you allow them to treat you. You the one that give them room to either respect you or to disrespect you. And if either one happens, you the one also that reacts accordingly and how you react will determine how they treat you moving forward. So this whole situation is on you. You allowed your husband to disrespect you before giving him room to do it again this time with your sister. Same with your sister, loyo ke akasiye nje umuntu( that one isnt even human) no one in they right mind will do what they did to they own sibling unless they have an agenda.
Apart the fact that he spoke Zulu so perfectly he truly was making sense now.
Me: So what do I do?
Mothlagodi: Oh am not going to tell you how to live your life, its up to you if you want to give them another opportunity to disrespect you or you create a new space where you get respect without even begging for it.
I sat down ate the food with my thoughts all over.
Me: Can I sleep over.
I mumbled and he looked at me.
Mothlagodi: no problem, ill get a driver to bring your car up.
Me: Thank you.
Mothlagodi: Pleasure.
Kabelo
In all the years iv been with Zobuhle she has never slept outside these walls without me knowing where she was. When the gate opened at 9 am and she drove in parked and walked in the house she didnt greet nor look at me. She went to the drawer took out big black plastic bags and went to our room. She opened the closer and took her clothes one by one throwing them in a trash bag.
Me: Baby
She ignored me as if she didn’t hear a thing Iv said and continued to pack.
Me: Am sorry
She ignored me and I was panicking. This is not like her, she is a kind person and always come up with solutions of saving us, our marriage and life.
Me: Please talk to me.
She turned and looked at me and the person looking at me was someone else not my wife and I panicked
Me: I never meant to hurt you
Zobuhle: You didn’t
That totally took me back.
Me: Can we talk.
Zobuhle: I have nothing to say to you, unless you have something to say to me ill listen.
Now I was beyond scared, in all over lives she has never spoken to me like that or looked at me in that light.
Me: Uhmmm it was a mistake.
Zobuhle: which part? Me finding you in my house with my sister in my bed or you fucking my sister?
Me: Don’t be like that Zoe
She turned shoving everything in her bag.
Me: Why you packing.
She continued and took them to her car.
When she was done she took out the house keys from her keys and took her files and papers.
Me: Please don’t.
Zobuhle: Ill send my lawyers towards yours.
Me: you giving up on us?
She took a tissue from her pocket placed it on the table, i opened it to find her wedding ring.
Me: Zobuhle!!!
She turned got in her car and drove off with me standing there looking at her as she drove off. I felt my heart sink and I knew that this time around I fucked up big time, 30 minutes later a letter of resignation from her came through. 45 minutes later she took half of everything out of our bank accounts and left me exactly with half. 2 hours later I got and email of the pdf documents of a divorce with a subject “ please sign”. My mind was buzzing as I drove to my parents to ask them to talk to her parents on my behalf. I cannot lose her on this, I felt my world spinning and I knew that this time around i really did mess up big time...
Mothlagodi
When she left the other morning I gave her a card to my penthouse in town where I stay when Am attending business in town. She took it and I knew she was going to stay there. I haven’t seen her since a week ago and I haven’t slept not thinking about her all the time and having to answer my father million questions daily was beginning to be too much. I swiped the card to the penthouse and when I got in the place was a mess with pizza boxes everywhere and wine bottles all over and music blasting out loud. She was wearing my Armani white shirt with no pants and my socks and singing to Toni Braxton Spanish guitar like a crazy person. There were big black bags everywhere with clothes spilling out of them. Its like a little pig was staying in there. I stood there watched her dancing on top of my sofa that cost the same amount as her car. She screamed her lungs out singing and crying and when she turned she looked at me and hell behold she looked like a tornado hit her and it hit her hard.
Zobuhle: Opsy!!!
She trembled and fell with the wine spilling on my Persian rug. Am not even going to start on my shirt. I really don’t care about all the things but lord this was too much not to care.
She got up and I saw she was drunk as she lowered the volume and looked at me.
Zobuhle: Don’t tell me you have come to kick me out or the neighbours are complaining?
Me: You have no neighbours.
Zobuhle: Oh good than. Why you here?
Me: To check on you.
Zobuhle: Still in one piece!!!
She took a spin and fell again picking herself up and laughed.
Zobuhle:7 fucken years gone just like that. 12 years of loving a person and what he does? He fucks my sister. My own fucken sister!!! How could I be so stupid.
I kept quiet cause I really don’t know what a person says to such.
She got up and i watched her walk and my mind froze for a minute. Is she drinking my wine? 1998 Wine? Nah she isn’t. I walked closer to her and there it was my vintage bottle half, no wonder she was this drunk. My head was spinning this was a collectors item. She took it off my hands and drank straight from the bottle and wincing when the bitterness shocked her.
Me: Do you usually drink?
Zobuhle: Never drank in my life.
Me: I see. How about we place the wine away and you take a shower and sleep it off
Zobuhle: How about you fuck me instead.
I froze as she slowly grabbed my balls and kissed me and all the blood in my body was rushing in all angles, the minute I got stiff she pressed herself harder on me. It took all the power in me to pick her up and take her into the shower. Open the door shove her in there and open cold water as she screamed her lungs out. I left her there and walked out calling the cleaning service as I poured myself a glass of my wine. Might as well drink it. Than dad wonders why am single!!!....
