I've been lost for a long time and it was a lost boy who actually found me believe it or not
or was it the other way around ?
I mean i found him falling from the sky and it wasn't right, he wasn't meant to fall, he was meant to rise
He's just lost he's not for here
He's a good heart
I mean he doesn't have to be here he could have found another way but he's soft
A soft heart that'd rather clean up my mess
I'd probably tell him to mind his own problems except i need the help, and he's always willing to help
Ellierose is the purest of hearts and she's really nice
She's beautiful both her inner and physical self
She loves and doesn't judge, she knows what's wrong and right and stands by her choice and i wish i was like that She's beautiful even with her sneeze, i wish i was her sister to be honest
She's gone through a lot in that household and i wish i was with her through it, though i'm not always the nicest
I mean who ties up their mum ? I practically tape her mouth like she's just a piece of fragile glass
She's my mother and i love her but why don't i feel like the love i have for her should be more
She's probably going to be way better than i am at being a nice daughter but i just can't help it some times
She drives me insane! I'm the one taking care of her I've always been the one!
Why hasn't she ever felt the need to care ? I remember my childhood and the pain she's put me through
I remember the first time i stood up for her to my father, she called me disrespectful and he said i'm learning a lot of rubbish from my mother and to be honest that was true
The rubbish was learning how to be the most stupid person in this middle realm
I wish she thought me something better but to be honest i can't help but blame her, why not fight ? Everina's traditional and would never break up a family unless the father shows signs of madness and unstableness but to everinians that's barely the reason
Everina's peaceful and who's sentencing a judge ? The head to be honest, i mean he has a high position that's been in the thissle family for a long time
I'm really trying to be more of a daughter than a brat but it's hard
Ever since i was twelve I've been the mature one, i'm meant to be there
I'm sorry mother but if parts of this plan or the entire plan isn't sitting well with you i can't control that
But i love you and hopefully it's enough
And i'm scared, what if i'm left alone after this ? i mean i would have been out of everina's rader and they'd be long dead to me if darcine's heart was dumb enough to tell me the location of the thissle branch and to be honest i'm being very honest
I'm not the type to have her own tale, but to be honest i always know what to do
I'm always with a plan and i learned it from the most hated person in my life and that's the only thing I'm thankful for
He's the one that brought me up, though in fear he's not going to be in my life for much longer. Ever more like never being allowed back in
"Daddy i'm floating" i giggle at the beautiful painting i have with me on my hand, beautiful-ish
"Remove that foolish drawing from this home and practice shadow projection" "Learn something meaningful if you want to one day go to the shadow realm for your studies before you become a head you foolish six year old"
I wish he wasn't so mean and out of anger i broke my father's first rule
"What? You brat" he speaks in anger
The number one rule is not to touch him but to be honest i didn't i kicked him in his back knee
But i wasn't happy for two long
"Well i did end up in the emergency room"
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