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i have friends, i guess.
they ignore me, they call me lazy and pathetic, they call me freak, depressed and emo bitch. jeongin once (in front of everybody) asked that im okay or not. i said i'm fine, but i was clearly not and everyone knew that. minho said that im a fucking attention seeker and im just doing this for pity. these were the first bad words he said to me. after that everyone changed. this happend 3 months ago.
these 3 months were like hell. i just don't understand, whats wrong with me? why they hate me so much? i asked once and they yelled at me for it.
please, im begging. tell me whats wrong with me so i could change. i will change guys, really.
i want those fun times back when we were 15-16. those times were the times of my life.
but now, i ruined everything, again.
