Death And Love Poems (2) Mafia Romance

54. Unlikely

Thiago

Our duty as sentient beings is to protect the ones who cannot protect themselves. This is the difference between us and animals, that to some extent we grew out of survival of the fittest.

So here I am, watching my very confused and gorgeous girlfriend annoying the living hell out of me.

I cannot pinpoint the moment when I fell in love with her. Might as well have been love at first sight but with every day it grew stronger.

Davi says that I am stupid because she is treacherous and a pathological liar and I cannot even deny that she is. She lied so many times I can indeed not trust her in good will but that doesn't make me want her any less.

I don't think she is a bad person. If I thought that, I wouldn't love her yet I do. She loves her brother a lot and did a lot of things solely for him in a very unselfish way.

Does she love me? Sometimes I think she does, other times I severely doubt it.

Everything was going in a more or less right direction till he turned up. The Mafia boss my girlfriend slept with.

Well, one of them. But with this particular one, it seems to have been in some way different, significant for whatever reason. And after our last discussion, I am pretty convinced he did some fucked up stuff to make her say the things she did. I have seen a few cases when criminals were looked at like heroes or saviours by impoverished, desperate and severely misguided people. If you are very hungry and a narco is the one who gives you a loaf of bread you wholeheartedly kiss his hand. What these naive people don't know is how very expandable they are and that the same hand will press the trigger without a second thought and end their, to them, worthless life.

He might have done something similar and her judgement is now muddied and severely impaired.

As a person he is... Weird. An orphan since he was barely full of age, strange upbringing, very few and hard-to-find records.

He lived almost ten years in Japan when he was a kid. Apparently his father wanted to get rid of the result of his affair. That must have sown a deep feud and hatred for the legitimate brother who inherited everything.

Years later, he returned to Italy to be a lackey to his older brother. One might find this odd but it seems the sucker had a plan the whole time. There is no proof whatsoever but it is rumoured that he killed Stfano's daughter, his little niece. That only makes me think that if Roxana sympathizes with a child killer she must be out of her mind.

Now he is part of a different clan from his mother's side where any other heir died... conveniently. He probably killed them. Disgusting and fucking frightening how these people roll.

It's already half past five. Roxana should be home by now. It makes me anxious when she is late. It might be a good idea to put an air tag in her purse or so, just to be sure.

It's not helping that she is not picking up her damn phone not even after the third ring. My mind makes up very ludicrous stories. What if he is here again? What if they are together? What would they actually do?

I am pretty sure that he is not interested in her anymore. He likely never was but she is pretty and good in bed and he might have had a temporary attachment, as much as these people can have. Maybe he would like to fuck her again once just to show that he can.

Ah, I should snap out of it. He just got engaged and is apparently minding his own business.

After my tenth ring, there is still nothing. Why is she doing this to me?! I call at her work and the secretary tells me that she had left on time and she saw her crossing the street to a cafe with an attractive girl.