Once upon a time...

Waiting for this day...

Listen to It'll be Okay by Shawn Mendes

Hey, are you free, less busy?
Can we take a walk, just me and you?

I waited for your reply to the point that I felt you left me unread
Then you replied few minutes to 8:00pm
"Okay"
I still felt giddy but weird to reply immediately like I had nothing going on for me.

Atleast you agreed to meet

This step I'm taking is a huge one that can either make me or break me bit I'm doing it anyways. I was pushed to do so, so I did

I saw you through my dorm windows, baggy pants and a huge top on your petite frame

My plans felt sweaty but I have to talk it out.

I told the only person that needs to know where I'm headed that I'm going out for some air
Alot has been overwhelming so she let me be

The night wasn't too cold but I needed confidence so I wore a hoodie and baggy pants too

I felt like they knew what I wanted to talk about
Leaving my dorm room with little to no hope bout any form of positivity
I met up with them and they smiled with their tired eyes

Okay that eased me up a bit

After we where in no sight of anyone important
I sighed loudly and they looked at me

It's weird now that it's just us I said
Let's ease up the tension with the basics okay and they agreed

We talked bout our likes and dislikes till we got to where we could sit
I looked up into the dark skies, maybe I'd get lucky enough to see a shooting star
They imitated me and I smiled inside

You're never this quiet around her I said
Who's her? they asked
Oooh Her, yeah we are pretty close
I smiled weakly at them

Lemme be honest here, I said with teary eyes as I looked at them and back up at the skies

I don't know what I have for you but it obviously isn't friendship and I've tried, really tried to keep to myself till it fades but it's eating me up for some unknown reasons and it's not supposed to be so coz you're not even the first I've admired.
I hate that I feel this way about you coz it's you

At first I didn't notice you but after your questions I got connected with you, that I started seeing us together
I thought I was being delusional but it's....

The expression on their face was unsure
I couldn't read their emotions
I was ready for the rejection because why not
I just wanted closure

Scenarios
Scenarios
They keep playing in my head
They never happen the way I imagined it, it never happens does it?

The scenario lives rent free in my head
I won't forget this...

                       D.a.n.i.e.l.l.a