This is the second entry but I finally had time off work. I woke up energised and refreshed today and I suddenly had the motivation to clean up my new room, and throw out items I found that are of no use to me. Anything that can be reused will be donated to the less fortunate than I, and anything that's tattered or unusable will be thrown in the garbage. Never to be seen again. The flannel of many colours that I own all hung up and ready to be worn during the colder days and nights all lined up in a completely random order, unorganised, just hanging and ready. The many shirts I own that are completely unnecessary, to be worn until rags they become, rags to clean. I never knew I had an abundance of shirts to wear before today. But they will be worn down, since that saves money on clothes I didn't know I had. With my room cleaned and partially organised, with a half made bed to sleep on during the nights, I listen to a playlist on YouTube of the heavier side of the music community, with SO MUCH TIME ON MY HANDS. I invested money into a rundown company wishing that the gain would be beneficial to my favour as this company owes me a lot of money, "To the future of earning" I say to myself, not hopeful at all to luckily increase my earnings by two.
Today was already so productive, I've already had a test drive to upgrade my vehicle from a Seven year old sedan to a top of the line brand new 4WD. Yet to do washing for the week, I think "what even else can I do with my day off with all this free time".
I've not had this much free time for over two years. Typing this I COULD read a book, or finish a game I'd not finished yet, or go achievement hunting on the games I've completed story wise. Just to wait on a valid form of ID to arrive in my hands and then I can organise more of my upgrades, like a new phone. From the beaten up, cracked glass screen, I'm rambling due to the amount of time I have now, still coming to terms with my free life.
The night before, I woke I reconnected with a friend I had been with for years and before that, the night went smoothly, unsure of what's happening when I arrive there. It was awkward at first, tense due to what I had done with our past. I had a great time, dare I say it was very unexpected that it went that well. I'll cut the details but right before I'd left, there was something said and it made me absolutely melt in comfort to hear the words. "I never stopped loving you", it shocked me to hear the words, but I still felt comfort and hope to somewhat achieve whatever I wanted to achieve. Would I even say hope to reconnect into a relationship this early? Maybe, but I would not want to move to fast after I'd left something that made me feel so miserable. With a hug a little longer than normal friends should be hugging my heart jumped a beat with a feeling unfamiliar. It feels weird expressing this on the internet with I wouldn't know who to be reading and evaluating how fast my head moves all the time. At this point I assume that they'd be so confused with so much details skipped. She had been a friend, then a life partner, then an ex, to a stranger, to someone I'd completely forgotten about due to my circumstances of recent. But there is happiness in it for me with knowing that it didn't end as badly as I thought it had. Should I visit her, should I even message her saying I had a great time within her company. More ramblings from my brain, maybe, one day I'll show her this diary as I plan to make more chapters. Or more ramblings within a personal diary that I type in for other humans to read.
I'll end it here, but there is hope, there is a plan for my future now, when I wrote the first chapter, I didn't know I would continue, but as time past and I realised I now have the world of time on my side, I would like to continue and I wish you enjoy reading what goes on in my head, it's a bit more personalised than I'd like. So hopefully there are humans that like my life after I had no control.
Thank you so much for reading this!
~ Creature_Bandit
