My Obsessed Ex

Part.6 selfish me

6 month after Jang Kiyong went missing, My life has turned upside down.
I once thought that my mission was to help Ryu Jun, but then I am the one who need help.
I've been actually looking for him. But nil. He's gone.
1st and 2nd weeks without him were the hardest moments in my life. None of our friends could tell me where he is. None of our both friends could tell me where is he, what is he doing, nor what was his plan over us. He never been in his apartment. Ever. I waited for hours, days.
His manager won't say any word about it and I just couldn't ask for more.
I stopped texting his manager after 2 months and just deleted all his contacts.
I cried so much at night, missing him, feeling stupid, feeling guilty. The next day, when I got a job to do, I had to ask my manager to do anything to hide my swollen face.

I never met Ryu Jun after that night. I deleted his numbers and told my manager to never let him find out anything about me.

For the past few months, I buried myself in new projects, movie after movie, but no drama yet.
I felt like I was not ready to star in a new drama, let alone to act in all romantically a with any male partner. I tried to heal myself first. I went home often on my holiday, played with my niece and nephew or go alone on a holiday somewhere in the world, where nobody knows me.

Then one day, my manager said I got a new drama offer. It is a comedy romantic drama, more comedy that the romantic lines. I read the actor name "Lee Jun young"
Hmm, He is younger than me. Well, Maybe it's about time for me to build another chemistry with another guy this time. It's been a while since I did that, So I told my manager I would accept that role.

When I first met him during our script reading, he looked cute. He boldly told me that he was a fan of mine during my idol life, And I jokingly said "Are you trying to say that I am old Jun young-ssi?" And he panicked.

This is my first time staring in a drama with someone I didn't have to call oppa. Since he is younger than me, I can call him by his name, Jun young -ssi. And he called me Noona.
I found it funny. I am a Noona.

"Noona, I made some cookies yesterday, here is for you". He handed me a box of cookies with cute characters on them.
" You baked cookies?" I raised my eyebrows, wondering if these are his original work or did he buy them from somewhere
"Yes,I baked them on my own. I learned how to bake  cookies from my mom. She is a good baker. Noona should meet her sometimes and validate it".  His expression while saying those words in a serious way cracked me up.
"Noona, you laughed!" Wow, I laughed for the first time in 6 months. My manager who's standing close to us gave me a big smile. I looked up at Jun young who's standing in front of me and smiled at him.

"Gomawo" I whispered to him. I think I finally opened up my self and being Hyeri again.
"Try it noona, is it good?" I opened the box, took one pink cookie and ate it. Hm, It tasted really good. I chose the chocolate and ate them too. My eyes smiled in excitement.
"How is it noona? you likey?" He said cutely.
I gave him two thumbs up and when my manager walked closer, I kept them on my lap,
" These are mine. You ask Jun young to bake new ones for you" I snapped.
My manager being sulky about it and Jun young laughed prettily.
This boy has a cute smile. I told myself. " I'll bake more for you noona" I think I'm getting used to him calling me noona.

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Jang Kiyong POV
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6 months passed after I left her apartment that night. I didn't hate her, I was just disappointed in her. I left no words, no trace, I just chose to disappear from her life. She must've felt happy that I finally gave her up, Wasn't it all she wants? "Kiyong ah, Hyeri called again" ------ "Ignore her". I said. It happened until 2 months later, then she stopped calling me. Good for her. Good for me.
I buried myself with work and work and also I stopped seeing our Gumiho family.
I deleted all their numbers and just chose to hangout with my other friends.
When I bumped to some of our Gumiho family in some events they never come to me even just to say hi. They treated me like a stranger and I did the same too.
I dated one girl, a new actress I met in a drama but it lasted less than a month only.
I didn't feel the same butterflies in me as when I was with Hyeri, So I decided not to date anyone after that. When I miss her laughs, her smiles and her noisy nags, I cried myself to sleep.

I saw her through the screen only, I never bumped into her in any event, I wonder why.
2 months after I rejected her calls, she also just went missing. I met her best friends in some events where they used to be so friendly with me but then they were not anymore. I seemed to be in the top of blacklisted actor by her circle. Byeon Woo Seok was the only friend who greeted me when we met. There was a moment when I asked for Hyeri but his answer was bitter, "I never meet her in months Kiyong, she is busy with her projects her manager said, she got no time to hangout, why? You two had a fight?". "Nothing, I was just wondering" I replied.

Just like tonight. I bumped into them, Byeon Woo Seok, Kim Do Wan, Kang Ha Na and Kyunghye in an award event. Guess what happened? YES! None of the three talked to me. They just bowed as if I am a stranger and continued talking and joking with Woo seok but I was left alone.

It hurt. We used to be so close before that night.

I, out of curiosity chose to sit next to Woo seok during the award. I tried to talk to him.
" Woo seok-ah, can I ask you something? "Hyeri, isn't it? He snapped coldy. "She's fine, if you wanna know. She is doing a new drama with Lee Jun young. Luckily he is able to make her laugh again after 6 months" His voice sounded bitter. He didn't even look at me when he said them.

"I can't bring that laughs back even when I tried hard every single time, she was just dead inside. So, if you are curious with her life, I'd like to say DON'T please. She has been through hell these past 6 months, She wasn't even the Hyeri that I know. So, please leave her alone, Kiyong" He then looked at me. "I beg you not to see her anymore, she has just recovered from the pain you left her, I can't watch her crying  anymore. I still respect you as my old friend, So please, stay out of her and leave her alone as what you have done before". He pleaded me with that tone.
Woo seok, her closest male friend, whom happened to be my friend too, pleaded me to leave her alone.

How big the wound I caused? How deep the scar I left on her?
Jang Kiyong!