Forbidden Love. - Mattheo Riddle x Y/n story

Chapter 19- Forgivness.

"Can you fix me." Mattheo said. My whole body flinched as he said this. he wasn't broken he wasn't a mess. i wanted him to see himself through my eyes. He is one of the few people that are the reason i am still alive.

"Matty, there is nothing wrong with you, i wish you could see yourself the way i see you, you are so fucking amazing and i want you to realise that." he looks up and i wipe the tears off his cheek with my hand. 

"So why can't i communicate and tell people how i Fucking feel Y/n?" he snaps back violently. he has a right to snap at me after everything. I grab his chin forcing him to look into my eyes. "That is not your fault Matty, that is your fathers fault and i know you don't want to speak about him and you don't have to, i won't make you. But it is his fault for the way he Brought you up, the way he made you live in constant fear of him..." I pause looking down at him nervously for about what i am about to say. "...If it is anything, your father is one of the worst people i have ever known, met, and heard of. But i am here for you to talk to, When you are ready i am never going to force you." I reassure him.

"But why can't i just be a Normal Lad, like the rest of them." I let this comment slide because he was opening up slightly, if he wasn't i would have fully go and made him look in a mirror, and make he get on his knees and beg him for forgiveness because he is a normal lad, he just has trauma and that's okay.

"That's what happens to people who have Trauma. Some people turn silent, like your brother, Tom. Some people get mean and shout and scream at anyone, Like me. But some people get the worst of the both, Like you. And I'm not saying there is anything wrong with that, but, Next time you get angry, like you did, come to me, even if the situation involves myself and you, i will try and calm you down, but if you don't calm down then you can go and punch whoever you want in the face, as long as it is not me or any of your friends."

His body sits up. we didn't turn the lights on, but the moonlight was shining on his silhouette making him stand out. I love him. I always have and i always will. 

"Matty?" his turns his head and looks at me slightly.

"Yes Y/n?" He says trying to roll his shoulders. my hands immediately shifted to them. He let out a low groan as i worked my fingers into his muscles relieving him of the tension. 

I felt myself get a little bit aroused at the sound of his groan. I wanted to act on it, but, i felt like if that happened i would depend on his touch too much.

"Don't ever think anything is wrong with you because of the way you have been brought up by your father..." my fingers hit the spot on his shoulders and he lets out a low groan one again this time his body shook a little "... i want you to know i am here for you... forever and Always Matty."

He stands up slithering his grip around my waist and picks me up so my legs are wrapped around his waist. he sits back down on the bed and i sit up on his lap. looking at him with sorrowful eyes.

"Y/n, i don't blame you!" a faint smile appears on my face. 

i lean down and place my lips on his, gently. his hands once again wrap around my waist and he kisses me back sitting up and deepening the kiss.  

one of his hands was in my hair pulling it gently and pushing my lips into his further. 

i lean back placing my forehead on his and looking into his eyes. 

"Matty can i be honest with you?" I say looking deeply into his eyes trying to reason with myself with what i was about to say, he looks back into my eyes and says "Yes" he says this quick like he depended on my words.

"I..." i pause trying to yet again reason with myself but nothing is working i have to tell him what is going on in my head. He looks into my eyes once again, this time more loving and vulnerable and i am drawn to him with every aching fibre in my body.

"I need to tell you that none of this is your fault, i need to tell you that i have known about what pansy was doing for months and i feel horrible about it... i should have told you..." his lips move like he was going to say something, i place my index finger on his lips shushing him. i look away from his eyes but this time i don't try and reason with myself i let out what is in my head.

"i need you to realise that what she did, she did because it's pansy, i lost her as a sister... but... you are still the only reason why i am here, you are the only reason why i am still on this fucking stupid planet... and by god i love you with all my heart." i look into his eyes and i notice something shift in his gaze. 

He brings his hands up to my waist gripping down hard enough to make me not fall but not to hard that it hurts me. i look into his eyes and it looks like his patience had worn thin.

"Do you want to know why i didn't have sex with pansy?" he says his grip tightening around my waist and my hips. I look into his eyes and shake my head. "no, i don't" i say back looking into his eyes.