Imagination (Christian Collins fanfiction)

Chapter 31

We walked downstairs to the cafe but I didn't eat, my anxiety got to the point where if I eat, I feel like I'm going to throw up. I just watched Christian eat and scrolled through my phone with shaky hands.

Chris put his hand over my phone and I glanced up at him, "Why are you shaking?"

"Anxiety..." I sighed, I really can't stop shaking, it just happens.

He rubbed my arm and pulled me closer to him. I rested my head on his shoulder and stared at nothing, I wish my anxiety wasn't bad, I wish I wasn't emotionally in pain, I wish I didn't feel so depressed...

I started crying but didn't show emotion on my face, just stared at nothing while my eyes watered and tears slipped out. With anxiety I can literally cry and be sad without showing it in my face, it's bizarre.

Chris wiped my tears, took my hand, and stood up. He threw money on the counter and walked out of the cafe, I'm starting to actually cry now and I'm not exactly sure why, so much is wrong right now.

We turned down a hallway and Chris pulled me down on a bench, he kneeled down in front of me,

"Why are you crying?"

I shrugged and covered my face because, let's face it, my crying face is not pretty.

Chris pushed my hair behind my ears and wrapped his arms around me from the front, I started wheezing which isn't good, I'm literally having an anxiety attack over nothing right now.

"Nikki it's okay, you're okay."

"Chris I can't- breathe."

"You can breathe you'll be fine."

"No, I can't- breathe."

He mumbled something under his breathe and picked me up bridal style, "Get your hand off your face, it isn't helping okay? Nikki you need to take deep breaths, I got you.."

I slipped my hand off my face and tried to take deep breaths, but they were fast shallow breaths. Chris went to the parking lot and slipped me in a car, he got in the drivers seat and I looked at him confused,

"It's Jeff's."

I sat back and closed my eyes while trying to breathe and Chris put his hand over mine, "It's okay, Princess. It's just an anxiety attack, we've been through this before." I slowly nodded and he started driving.

He pulled up to an ER and picked me up out of the car because I can't stand. My breathing got better but it's still difficult and my legs don't want to leg.

He went inside with me and doctors or something crowded around, "She's having an anxiety attack or something! She can't breathe and I don't know what to do anymore!"

They grabbed me from him and he tried to follow but they stopped him, "I'm sorry, sir. You can't go back there."

"What? No! She needs me!"

"Sir she'll be okay, trust me."

"No I need to be back there with her!"

I cried harder because he tried to fight them and he failed, "Ma'am I need you to calm down."

"Christian!" I yelled but it was the only thing I managed, I need him, I can't breathe anymore, I'm shaking, I can't stop crying.

"I need to get back there!"

"Sir we-"

I took as deep a breathe I could at the moment, "LET HIM BACK!" I cried harder and heard footsteps but I couldn't keep my eyes open, I heard a door shut but felt safe, he's in here. Chris is in here.

I fought my eyes open and looked at him, he grabbed my hand and kneeled down next to me, "I'm sorry, Princess... I can't believe I let this happen."

I shook my head because I couldn't get words out, "You'll be okay, but the doctor is going to give you an IV and something else, you're going to fall asleep okay?"

I nodded and felt a pinch in my arm. I winced and felt one go in to my hand before blacking out.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A/N
SORRY I DIDN'T UPDATE ! I was at summer camp for 5 days and some drama happened with my crush and I had an extremely bad anxiety attack and then got sun poisoning on my face which resulted in 3rd degree burns so I had to go to the hospital when I got back and it's just ugh . I'm doing better though and have medication but I'll try to write more now that I'm home and better ! Love you guys ! 😚😚