Jungwon was alone at night,
he couldn't escape his demons anymore now.
His demons were actually his thoughts about starving himself to be thinner or cutting himself because he thought that he ate too much even though he ate like a normal human being his age.
His eating disorder started with bulimia back in february 2022. Every time he ate he would end up on his knees in front of the toilet with his index and middle finger shoved down his throat. He started being bulimic when he was at a weight of 48kg.
He wasn't fat,
No,
not at all it all started because he used to have a fast metabolism wich led him to only weigh 37kg but he ruined it all by binging.
His eating disorder will come back every few months and go away the others,
like he would eat well for one month but then the month after he would relapse and go back.
It went on like this for more than one whole year but after that in august 2023 he thought that he would go on a diet,
at this time he went from his heaviest weight of 56kg to 50kg.
His diet consisted of one cup of warm coffee for breakfast,
rice with one egg for lunch and whatever his mom made for dinner while doing home workout and +10k steps daily. But after that he started counting calories he went from a daily intake of less than 1200 kcals,
to less than 1000,
to 800,
to 500,
to 250.
His lowest weight was 42.8kg, it was back in november 2023.
Oh how he wished he could go back in time and not ruin it.
But right now he was in recovery,
because it wasn't normal to feel this bad over some stupids meaningless numbers.
Or...
Was he...?
No he didn't actually want to recover.
He just wanted to eat well before ending it all...
God he was tired...
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FanfictionThis is just me projecting onto my favs. This story will contain 5 chapters each one with one things i struggle with This book will include only boys group it will have Seventeen, Ateez, TxT, SKZ and Enhypen
