the way of the eclipse

it's hard to hate someone you've known your whole life...

*this takes place 2 weeks after the last chapter at the next meeting, oh and tsuki decided to cancel that haircut with Giyuu because Yuzu really liked tsukis hair longer and tsuki as we know is a Simp*

Me and Luna set closer to master as this meeting was about us mainly, the master seems happier than usual mainly because one of us was moving to the position of hashira or maybe something else. Luna was extremely excited, she always talked about how she was so excited to become a hashira when she had the chance so naturally she was pumped to be here. I was hoping she was the winner honestly I never wanted that fame I'm only here because I was stronger than most. "The battle was extremely close but.. I'm excited to say the new hashira is...

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Tsukuyomi Tsuki"

My soul left my body when I heard my name I glanced at Luna her face Darken and she just got up walked past me and to the far corner. I decided to play it off for now until the meeting was over. I bowed in respect and thank him, he began saying something else but I wasn't really paying attention. When the meeting was over everyone left except for Luna. I walked over the her and tried to say something but she just turned away. I tried the wrong after her and put my hand on her shoulder but she slapped my hand away and pushed me. "Are you happy now?" She asked me before walking away. I was surprised and upset to say the least but maybe she was just upset and she would come around eventually. Right? Right... I walked back to the meeting area as I forgot my sword.

"Tsukuyomi my child may I talk to you for a second?" The master said as I picked up my sword "ofcourse  master..." I said as I sat down.

(You don't get to know what he said yet so time skip bought you by the paragraph he said)

When I made it back to the estate it was night time. The door was locked I had to knock on the door  for yuzu to let me in. I walked to Luna's room and locked in the door "come in" she huffed from the other side. I opened the door and closed it behind me Luna never liked leaving on a futon so her room was the only one that had a bed so I sat down. She didn't even look up at me she's still looking at the floor. "I-im sorry about what happened earlier it wasn't up to me, I hope you understand... " I said putting my hand on her shoulder she jerked away from me before pushing me off of bed I quickly got back up. Look at her in shock she got up and looked at me angrily

"OH SHUT UP ALREADY. IF IT WASN'T UP TO YOU THEN WHY WOULD YOU TAKE THE POSITION YOU COULD HAVE TURNED IT DOWN OR ARE YOU THAT MUCH OF A ATTENTION SEEKER, JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR CONDITION DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO ALWAYS HAVE ATTENTION ON YOU. IF YOU WANT TO KNOW A FUN FACT YOU WERE IN A PART OF AN AFFAIR. YOUR DAD YOUR ACTUAL DAD HAD VITILIGO WHEN YOU CAME OUT DAD INSTANTLY KNEW WHAT HAPPENED AND HAD HIM KILLED THAT'S WHY YOU WOULD NEVER TREATED LIKE A NORMAL PERSON IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH YOU'RE A MISTAKE, NOW GET OUT I DON'T WANT TO EVER SEE YOU FACE AGAIN!" luna screamed into a backed up against the door quickly opening it and getting out slamming it behind me. I mean I always knew my Mom and Dad didn't like each other very much and kept the peace just for me and Luna but I didn't think my mom was that person to cheat she treated me like I was the only person in the world that mattered I guess she neglected Luna because of that. I really didn't think she had it in her to cheat.

I needed to collect my thoughts so I left the estate and walked to the creek. But I got that sat down took my shoes off and dipped my feet in the water. The words master said to me linger than the back of my mind.

"Never allow a person to tell you no who doesn’t have the power to say yes" I took these words into recognition but what no one understands is it's hard to hate someone that you've known you entire life. It's hard to let them tell you no when all they ever told you was yes.. that's what it was like for me and Luna. And I know it's a part of life and nothing lasts forever. it's like losing rengoku all over again. I always tell myself a true friend is never truly gone. Their spirit lives on in the memory of those who love them. But it's hard to lose someone and still go back to the happy memories. It feels like I lost my sister even though she's still here.

But I can just smile through it I mean usually pretty good at putting on a mask, I mean I do it all the time if anyone ever suspects something's wrong I shut them up with I'm fine. But today I'm really struggling and I  can't find it within myself to force another smile exhausting trying to keep up with this persona I don't want to live in denial... But I know this isn't an option so I'm going to brace myself for the future. But then I sensed someone I turned around and saw someone staring, it was yuzu.. the way she looked at me it was like she could see right through me sensing something was wrong she walked over to me and sat down after a long silence. She said "are you ok...?" I have been asked this question many times before but but something about in the way in which she said it made me feel that she cared what I had to say. struggling to keep myself together I could feel my insecure days on display I started to tear up as I clenched onto my hoari.. you see my mask was my safety net it helped me get through each day the only thing that could cover the hurt and the pain and now my safety net was gone I can't find the right words to say cuz how do you tell someone you're hurting when you can't remember the last time you were okay? I couldn't get myself to shake her I couldn't get myself to lie I couldn't get myself to force another smile... Not this time...

(This chapter took a lot of thought and this was also partly a vent)