Wreckage and Heartbreak

For The Better

You tell me "it's for the better" and my mind fills  with thoughts. What's going to happen now? Is my life coming to my end? What's about her?
Is It Actually For The Better?

I'm not too sure how I feel. There are too many emotions I'm feeling, there are too many for me to handle. It's all too much right now.
Is It Actually For The Better?

I keep getting reminded of her. I'll see or smell something and I'll start thinking about her without even wanting to. The memories we made don't leave my mind, I want them back and be able to make more. I miss her.
Is It Actually For The Better?

I'm so full of love that I want to give to nobody else but her. It hurts knowing that my love has to go to someone else, it hurts even more that I can't be the one she receives it from.
Is It Actually For The Better?

You were the love of my life. I loved you more than you loved me even if we fought over it, saying you loved me more. I feel now that I was an old toy you were getting tired of and searched for a new one and once you found one you threw me to the side. So yeah, I loved you more.
Is It Actually For The Better?

I did whatever you wanted. You told me "stop doing that" and I do everytime. I always ditched friends for you, I lied to others for you, I yelled at people to defend you even when you were in the wrong. my whole world revolved around you.
Is It Actually For The Better?

I keep on running back to you in hopes to change your mind. I think about the memories we've made together and I can't let go of them.
Is It Actually For The Better?

I constantly tell myself it's my fault, that I scared you off. I blamed myself for everything, whenever you snapped at me if I did something you didn't like I'd blame myself for it because you never did tell me what you wanted.
Is It Actually For The Better?

I'm looking back now and while spilling my feelings into this poem I've realized something. I acted like you owned me, I became your dog and you took advantage of that and put me in a cage I didn't know I was even trapped in. Even if I don't know if that was your intention or not, but if you end up reading this just remember that no matter what I'll ALWAYS care for you whether you are my gf, best friend, or enemy. That just makes the question harder to answer tho.
Is It Actually For The Better?

Don't get me wrong, I miss the memories we've made and sometimes I wish we could make more and yes I haven't fully moved on yet. You stole my power and I saw you as a very special person to me and I still do. You also made me happy in a way and you still do a lot of the time, that still won't stop me from taking my power back. You also took advantage of me and I didn't even notice whether it was your intention or not. While picking up the pieces you left me in I found the answer to my question I keep asking. Once I realized it, the weight on my chest had finally disappeared. So I guess the answer is
Yes, It Is For The Better.