| Maybe We Weren't Meant to be Anymore | Sabigiyuu angst | Giyuu angst

[1] Bands of Promise

TWs -  Implied SH, SH, attempted Su!c!de/mention, mentioned ED, and cussing.

BTW - This is going to be an AU flashback, don't be surprised if it ain't canon because this is an AU after all..

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Giyuu's POV -

I was running with Sabito through the forest and I tripped on a rock. I lifted my arms, and that's when Sabito looked back. He didn't laugh like usual. 

He stood still, frozen, and I looked at him confused.

"Have you been cutting?" Now it's my turn to freeze, I realized when I tripped he could see the cuts. The fresh ones, and the old ones. 

I started crying, and I felt my tears roll down. I broke down on my knees, I felt them go loose and let them go loose. "I-I-I-I..." I stuttered uncontrollably.

"Shh, it's okay Yuu!" Sabito reassured me.

I looked into his soft eyes, with sympathy in them for me. I shifted closer to him and I cried in his arms, I didn't know how long because it felt like hours even though it was only minutes. 

"I'm sorry." I finally choke out.

"Yuu, have you done anything farther than that?" He asks, his tone gentle and reassuring in every aspect. I wonder, can I trust him?

"You won't get mad at me right?" He shakes his head and I look at him as I get up. "I-I tried to commit suicide last year." His eyes immediately widened and he shoved me into another hug. I fell down again.

"Why would you do that Yuu? I don't want you to be sad!" I could hear the honesty in his voice, and I just melted in his arms. 

"I-I don't know, I can't help it. I'm sorry.." "No Yuu, stop apologizing. It's not your fault!" He yells at me. He still holds me tight, and I feel safe. I feel like nothing can harm me.

————————— A few days later ————————

During some free time Urokodaki gave us, we made some brackets for each other.

"Hey Yuu, do you want to try something?" I tilt my head and nod. I trust him.

"What if we make promises to each other with these bracelets?" He asks, looking for any hint of hesitation in me. "What do you mean?" I ask, I'm confused not exactly sure what he wants me to do.

"Like we wear one on each wrist and let's say you promise me not to do self harm, if you do it you break the bracelet off. It's a reminder that we have each other!" He smiles at me warmly. How could I not give in when I feel so safe and connected?

"Sure!" His gaze shifts from caring to being serious. 

"Giyuu, I have the promises I want you to take." I nod my head, I'm ready.

"Promise to me not to do self harm with the dark blue bracelet, and promise to not attempt suicide again. If you don't like those that's fine, but I'm here for you Giyuu it's ok." I gulp for a moment. 

"Okay." I answer, and he ties the dark blue bracelet onto my left wrist and the lighter one to my right. I look at him and smile. "Thank you." 

I think, and think. I don't want to lose Sabito. I know he did self harm like me at some point...

"Okay I have my promises for you! First with that salmon colored one, if you get separated from me you will always come back to me as soon as possible. No matter what." He nods his head.