who would have thought? (Lonely Book 5)

Prologue: The Arctic Guy

In a few hours, this year will come to an end, and we will be welcoming a new beginning. This year was a roller coaster ride. Life has become more fucked up. And I am begging the universe this time not to make me cry more tomorrow.

Moving on is hard. Giving up is the worst thing that you'll regret your whole life. Letting go of the things you've established by just a plane ticket to a foreign country, that you never thought would make such a big deal in your life.

A fucking plane ticket that would make me cry gallons of tears. I had to give up so many friendships, the lifestyle, and the life-hangout after school been hitting me so miserably.

When I first landed in Japan, I didn't even try to get out of my room. I felt like I needed to reciprocate everything that just happened. Thinking about how to build another relationship with someone you have never lived with, even the community that you're going to encounter anytime soon. The neighbors are just our relatives. Some are just the same ethnicity. And the rest are the locals.

What made my life hard was the discrimination of not knowing how to speak their language. The Japanese. Even your 'kabayan' will miserably judge you. But, I knew how to fight for myself. I didn't give up easily.

I never changed how I see the world. I continued to live my precious life, because, life is short.

"Mag bihis ka na, pupunta tayong Illuminations sa Mie. Doon tayo mag babagong-taon." My Dad told me as he knocked on my door.

I just nodded and didn't say anything.

I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone today. I can't believe that today is the first time of the year. I am not expecting something special to happen today. I'm expecting the worst one because the universe loves to show me what is the worst in this world.

Kidding.

I took out everything that I could find inside my closet. I need to wear something that could make me warm in the freaking cold temperature of Mie. But, I wanted to look fashionable. So, I wore a long-sleeved top, a long skirt, and a blazer to keep me warm.

Fuck it, it's still cold.

I did my make-up and everything. I went inside the car and waited for the others to get ready. I heard that someone's family is also going there so we're going to have a convoy later. We'll drive together on the way.

"Are you okay?" The bitch asked.

"Yeah, of course." Alangan naman ipapamukha ko sayo na talo talaga.

I know she saw how irritated I was. Dapat lang.

To tell you something very hot...

She doesn't know how to respect girls.

Okay, here's the story. Before she arrived in this country. I met a guy that I'm not seriously crushing on.

I just liked him by his face and I wasn't Interested in making a move. But, he did, and only sees me as a friend. I told him that I liked him and the feelings weren't that deep. It's just a normal admiration of someone.

But, when this girl arrived. I tried my best to help her adjust her living in this country. She met my friends including the guy that I liked. I told her that I liked that person. That person and I stopped seeing in a friend's gathering, We haven't met ever since then.

One time I posted a pic with this Girl and he messaged me on Instagram and asked for that girl's name. I told him that she was my cousin and then he asked for the socials and gave it to him. I also told her that he likes her.