Shattering my Over-used Heart

Cole's chapter-The absence of someone who was once there.

I let out a growl when tommy leaves, then scoop out my navy-blue velvet box and place it in front of me on the desk, I asked if I could get a band made that fits directly above the ring we both chose. I pop the box open and stare at the ring it's a simple small band covered in small diamonds, I've never been so sure of anything in my life, but I've also never felt so apprehensive, I'm sure tommy doesn't care or hasn't even given what kind of wolf she is a second thought, he would stalk her till the ends of the earth, but me, damn it makes me second guess everything, if she says no, if further down the line she finds out she doesn't want this anymore or worse, if marking her and marrying her doesn't keep her safe.

The knocks at the door don't even faze me from thinking this over and over again as if it's the worst day of my life, my dad walks in with Genevieve trying to stop him, I open my eyes after rubbing the bridge of my nose. "I can see my son if I want to-" my dad barks back at Gen whose stopped trying to fight him, I look over my dad out of uniform and its weirdly un-nerving, he slams the door in her face and I blink my eyes slowly and count to ten in my head. "fucking busy-body elves, where's everyone?" my dad interrogates me "if you mean everyone that was on your or uncles pay-roll, I'm afraid I had to let them go, elves aren't easily persuaded" I answer him without looking up from my computer, I hide all the files I can while he's looking over his old office, I should of redecorated was my first thought, and put up pictures that mean something to me, instead I'm left with empty shelfs, a box of my dad's stuff in the corner, a clean desk and the fresh, clean smell of lemon. "your mothers worried about you" he mumbles, looking out the window "she's upset because I'm proposing to lacey" I mutter back with a hint of annoyance, of course she went straight back to my dad to report and he's here to give him one of those life lessons I used to abide by. "she's not upset, she's worried, that girl is a myriad wolf, can change her mind at any time while you're bound to her–" my dad starts but I slam my hand down on the desk, feeling the split I've made right down the middle, fuck I thought counting to ten would help. "Look I'm not interested in the speeches anymore-" I interrupt but my dad who also has the same temper "Who the fuck do you think your talking too?" he retorts, turning around and staring me down, this would of made me rethink my words, and wait for his next orders, and follow them without a single regret but since becoming alphas, and finding out every dirty little secret my dad had, I tower over him, losing the title of alpha you lose the height, the strength, the abilities it all slowly gets passed down, but I remain sat down at my desk. "I'm talking to the retired cop, who kept so much dirty shit to himself, I didn't wonder why his eyes were brown anymore" I speak up, and I stare back at him. "watch your fucking tongue son" my dad replies, folding his arms and I try to choose my words carefully "did you know about the chastity house? that you were protecting a prostitution ring? And slavery right under your nose?" I query raising my brows, I'm deeply hoping my dad was just too swamped he overlooked it "and do you know the Chasity pack? Old money, old clan, for a piece of our lands they allied with us-" my dad defends himself, pointing to his chest when he said allied "at the cost of those women?" I accuse and my dad stands tall "I did what I had to for my ...our clan" he seethed, I gather all the files on my desk in one big, neat pile and stand "and what about Don Roy? He was backing this clan too until all the clubs shut down, why? And don't give me a shit excuse of sudden change of heart" I criticize, folding my arms to wait for his response, he looks over my face, his eyes soften and he deflates a little, "He made a comment about Candance, me and Marcus were going to expose him, everything under the radar, we asked the doctor for his help–" dad trailed off but I knew where this conversation was going, its why dad was so angry on that day because we found out, and saw the state of lacey. "And offered lacey to help out, knowing she could and would" I sighed, I rub my temples, I heard my dad exhale loudly. "The Doc he trained that girl, he knew what type of wolf she was, she knows how to defend herself, taught her all sorts, pick pocketing, lock picking-" my dad starts to explain but I don't see how any of this is helping, we stare awkwardly at each other. "I shut it all down, all your dirty deals are gone, everyone on your pay roll is history, and Tommy's nearly buried everyone who had a problem with it" I concluded, holding my hand out towards the door, I hope he gets the gist of get the fuck out of my office, my dad shakes his head. "you boys don't know what your uncovering, me and my brother lost our souls trying to hide this clan, trying to just blend in..." my dad sounds like he's trying to educate me, as he shakes his head and leaves "see you at your party then, try and loose the attitude for your mothers and sisters sake" he says leaving, I slam the door behind him.