My Journey - A Left Right Left Story

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Rajveer(getting more flustered): Par main.....main....

Naina(Turning around to leave again): Mere pass aapko bakri ki tarah main....main.... karte sunne ka time nahi hai. If you would excuse me.....

Rajveer(tightening his grip on her and pulling her to his chest): Par main jealous tha, jealous tha ki Parth itne easily claim kar sakta tha ki you love him, claim that you affirmed. Jealous tha ki tum usse celebratory date par le ja rahi thi. Ki woh tumhe propose kar sakta tha aur tum usse haan keh deti. Ki woh sab ke saamne tumhara haath pakad sakta tha aur tum usse pakadne de rahi thi. Ki woh itni aasani se tumhe le kar hum sab ke nazron se gayaab ho sakta tha, aur tum uske saath chali gayi.

Naina(softening): Parth mujhe se romantically pyar nahi karta aur naa hi main uss se. Woh dinner humari ab tak ki sab se badi deal ko crack kar ne ke celebration thi. Main pichle 2 saalon se usske piche Ankita ko propose karne ke liye padi hun. Uss din main fir ussi baat ko le kar uss se jhagad rahi thi. Mujhe chup kar ne ke liye uss ne mujhe woh ring dekhai.

Uss ne mera haath aap ki di gayi watch ko dekhne ke liye pakada tha, taki woh mujhe convince kar sake ki tum....

Rajveer(hopefully): Ki main...?

Naina(blushing and avoiding eye contact): Kuch nahi, aur hum gayab isliye hue the kyunki uss ne aap sab ko hume ghurte hue dekh liya aur main wahaan koi tamasha nahi chahti thi. Par inn sab chizon ko le kar aap kyun jealous huye?

Rajveer: Naina I love you. Pyar karta hun main tumse. I know ki main ne khud tumse kaha tha ki tumhe jitna time cahiye utna le sakti ho...

Naina: Par?

Rajveer: Main jaanta hun ki tumhare aur Parth ya fir Aryan ke bich mai aisa kuch nahi hai. But I'm jealous. Fresher's Ball mai jab main tumhe Aryan ke saath dekha tha, main tabh bhi jealous tha. Aur jab tumhe Parth ke saath dekha... main tab bhi jealous hua.

I love seeing you smile and hear your laugh. I love seeing the way your eyes light up when you get excited about something. Main tumhe ghanto baat karte huey sunn sakta hun. I hate it when you get sarcastic or when you try to shut me out. I hate it when you push and punish yourself for things that are not in your control. But instead of walking away I want to walk towards the mess and chaos you create. I hate arrogant and cocky business people but I admire you for being the same. I know you hate being perceived as someone who's perfect, and I don't mind admitting the fact that the person I love is not perfect. I love you Naina, yes there are times when you really test my patience, like the past few days, but it's worth it.

Naina: Aur tum jo uss din se mujhey avoid kar rahe ho, do you think that I liked that? Didn't that hurt me? Didn't that test my patience? 

Rajveer, tum wo pehle the jis se main ne willingly help maangi. Jis se main ne aapni kissi ko le kar misgivings share kari. You were the first person who was not part of the family I had built who comforted me.

I love it that you don't treat me as a doll. I love it when you silently provide comfort and care instead of asking a thousand times whether I was okay. I love it when you ask for sketches.

But I also hate it when you keep your cool instead of bursting the other person. I hate it when you immediately offer yourself as a scapegoat for others. I hate it when you help us to escape punishment instead of letting us face it ourselves. I hate it that I've started to depend on you.

Rajveer I trust you, but....

Mujhe darr lagta hai. Darr lagta hai ki ek din you'll get up and realise that this was not worth it.