His Flower

Chapter One

 The nights have grown silent lately. This time of year haunts me, dragging old and painful memories from the deep, cold depths of my pocket dimension of Hell. Thoughts of him returning plague me as I place the pan in the oven. Paranoia attempts to trick me into thinking he knows where I am. When I left, I made sure not even my family knew where I had gone. My phone vibrates on the marble counter. Flipping it around, I notice a message pop up on the screen.

We're here. Open the door.

I sprint from the kitchen, around the couch, and to the door. Gemini is mid-knock when I swing the door open. Xylia and Gemini are hugging, shivering from the cold temperature in the hallway. I smile and move aside to let them in. The couple make their way to my radiator, defrosting their hands. The landlord always has the hallways cool this time of year because he hates being hot. I don't try to rationalize his move to Florida to keep my sanity.

"We brought the ice cream you requested. Did you make the nachos like you promised?" Gemini looks expectantly with hope sparkling in his eyes.

"Yes, now get your blanket Gem, you know this one is off-limits, you scoundrel." He and Lia plop themselves on my couch and share my favorite blanket. I rip the blanket off of them and relax into my recliner. Gemini pouts in response.

"She's so fucking mean." He complains, Lia shakes her head trying to hide a grin. Lia asked me last minute today about having a movie night. I always plan my week and so tonight I was going to watch The Gilmore Girls and eat Italian food. I can honestly say it stressed me out but not Lia, she never plans anything. Lia rides along with fate, no questions asked. I wish I could relax and ride the coast like her sometimes.

"I am not, and also Lia, next time can plan something ahead of time instead of making last-minute plans? You know it stresses me out." She shrugs her shoulders and cuddles into Gemini. "Do you plan anything ahead of time?" before she can answer Gemini smirks.

"You know she doesn't Flora, my pet doesn't plan." Lia smacks his chest with the back of her hand, rolling her eyes. "Anyway, what movie are we watching tonight, Lia?"

"I don't know, it's Flora's turn to pick. Flora, what do you want to watch?" I shrug my shoulders, feeling myself falling into subspace. This week ahas been especially demanding and I don't want to make anymore decisions. Snuggling closer into the recliner, Lia smiles softly noticing the change. I struggle with making decisions in this state. Sometimes I feel like a burden because I don't have a dominant to care for me. Gemini and Lia have both told me they don't mind. I appreciate them with my whole heart. Every night I lay my head down, my heart yearns for a partner. Someone who will love me for me and not have sex, will pay attention to me, do nice things for me, respect me and my boundries, and treat me like a person.

"Do you want to watch a romance or a comedy?" Gemini asks. In times such as these, I wish I had a dominant as Lia does. Gemini and Xylia have been together for three years. They met when Xylia and I went dancing at this jazz club. Gemini and Xylia danced all night after meeting at the bar. They've been together ever since. I want to be in love with someone. I want a man to take me dancing just because he knows I love to go dancing. Sometimes I feel like that man doesn't exist. Most men I've met don't want to go at my pace and fall in love. They want to fuck me and leave right after. Maybe the man I crave doesn't exist and I just have to settle. I hope this isn't true.

"Can we watch a comedy, I'm not really into the whole romance thing right now." Gemini and Lia give me sad looks and nod. The timer in the kitchen goes off and I excuse myself, making my way to the kitchen. Lia follows behind me. As I place the nacho dish on the stove, Lia leans against the counter next to me. I can feel the concern oozing off her in waves. Tonight is supposed to be fun, I don't want it to turn into "Pity Flora" night.