𝙎𝙀𝘾𝙊𝙉𝘿 𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙉𝘾𝙀𝙎- ᴍᴀᴛʜᴇᴏ ʀɪᴅᴅʟᴇ

𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙋𝙏𝙀𝙍 7

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️ 

this chapter contains a lot of talk on eating disorders. read at your own risk and stay safe!

brianna's pov 

Merlin I hate Astoria Greengrass.

She thinks she's so much better than everyone. 

And she says the worst things about everyone.

She knows everything. And uses it to her advantage.

The thing is, when she says something, she makes sure it hurts that person deeply.

To Matheo, what she said didn't seem that bad because he doesn't know.

No one does.

And it has to stay that way.

I tried to ignore her comments and enjoy my date, but they kept playing in my head over and over again.

over..

that fat, ugly thing 

and over.. 

did u see her at breakfast

and over ..

fat.

again..

ugly.

Astoria ruined our date.

no you did fatty. you should have eaten less.

I suddenly didn't want to eat when our food arrived but it would worry Matheo.

what do I do?

just get rid of it after.

I gulped down half my plate of food trying to ignore the voice telling me to stop eating.

fork.

chew.

swallow.

repeat.

put down the fork fatty.

"I'm full, do you want the rest?" I asked matheo, pushing the plate towards him.

"I was waiting for you to ask me that," he replied grinning as he grabbed the fork off the plate.

I rolled my eyes at the way he wolfed down the remains of meal and stood up.

"Where are you going?" Matheo asked with a mouth full of food, chomping noisily. 

"Chew with your mouth closed please. I'm going to the bathroom, won't be long."

"Okay," he replied, turning his full attention back to my plate.

Sighing softly, I made my way to the bathroom, locking the door behind me.

I promised myself I wouldn't do this again..

whatever. 

I knelt down infront of the toilet, tieing my hair up.

"This is the last time." I told myself. 

you say that everything but look where we are now.

My fingers found the back of my throat, and my food was gone.

Nice and empty well done.

 I stood up, washed my hands and returned to my date, a big smile on my face.

"Hey ready to head back then?" Matheo asked once he noticed me return from the bathroom.

"Yeah but lets go on a walk first."

smart thinking. burn some of the calories that u couldn't remove.

"okay."

Matheo got up, grabbed my hand and walked me out the restaurant, going in the opposite direction from the castle.

His hand was warm and his smile made butterflies erupt in my stomach. 

your fat stomach.

stop. let me enjoy today or atleast this moment.

never. enjoy when your skinny, suffer when fat.

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AN: short chapter sorry the next ones longer. please like and comment!!💗