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[03]

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Jungwon and Jake had talked for a bit, Jake telling Jungwon everything. The aussie gave the younger his number and they went their separate ways that day. It had Jake feeling a bit better, getting to talk through it. Meanwhile, Sunghoon was a mess. Sunghoon had just.. stuck around Wonyoung thinking it would be good for him. He finally had found.. 'love.' Or, what he thought love was. A boy and a girl.

Sunghoon and Wonyoung were family friends. Wonyoung had confessed her feelings, and he said yes. He thought it would make everything right when it really didn't. Everytime Sunghoon was with Jake, he had a butterfly feeling in his stomach. It didn't feel right. He didn't like boys.. right? Sure, he'd glance at their hot ass bodies, or want to kiss them.. but that isn't being gay, right? He wanted to stay away from Jake. Maybe it would make him feel less attracted to boys, he thinks. But even with Wonyoung, she catches it.

"Sunghoon, why are you staring at that guy?" She would ask. "Oh sorry, I spaced out." Which he lied. He was staring, with his head coming up with some unholy scenarios. Yikes. So straight. Wonyoung could tell something was up, but she didn't really think he was okay with admitting it yet, so she didn't push it. She just didn't feel like he was happy, but his instagram posts say something different. She was confused, but didn't wanna ask. It would be fine.

That day, Sunghoon kept his eyes on Jake. He really couldn't get his eyes off him. His features were just so pristine and beautiful to him. He didn't know why he felt that way. He was so fucking confused. He thought he liked Wonyoung. She's a pretty girl, so they'd work just fine, right?

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That night when Sunghoon got home he left his phone fully on do not disturb while on his laptop he searched up, "why do I find a boy attractive as a boy?" and things along the lines of that. All signs pointed to him being gay, but he just didn't believe it. He genuinely didn't want to be gay. Why does he have to like boys?? Especially Jake. Jake probably already hates him for totally ghosting him since Wonyoung came into the picture. Finding him attractive was the reason why he ghosted him!! He realized how much he missed him. He wanted his cuddles again, his hugs. Even if they were in a friend way. He needed some questions answered about his sexuality crisis, so he called Jay

rrrring..!

rrrring..!

rrrring..!

"Hey Hoon, wassup?" The american said on the other side of the phone line. "when did you know you were like.. gay or whatever?" he asked with hesitance. "gosh i- it was because of Sunoo not gonna lie." Jay came out as gay 4 months ago, when him and sunoo started their... he doesn't even know what to call it. "We were really close before, and I just realized I was into him. I reasearched it, and found that gay was the title for me. Why do you ask..?" he had asked with suspiciousness. "i- i don't know, i'm just confused and I don't want to admit it. I guess thats all. And Jake-" he covered his hand with his mouth. He didn't want to tell anyone he was questioning his feelings for him. "Sorry.. his name slipped" he lied. "It's fine, I have... Wonyoung." he said that with pain in his heart. It felt wrong, saying he was dating a girl. He hung up the phone on Jay and tried to fall asleep. Key word is tried. He was left with a sleepless night full of tossing and turning.

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That next day at school, Sunghoon also had the itch to ignore Jay. It felt like Jay caught on, and that scared hoon. He didn't want to be vulnerable, he wanted to keep his shit to himself.. right? Until he saw Jake talking to another boy. He didn't expect to be that jealous, but he wanted to talk to Jake. Not someone else. Anyways, Jay had walked up to him, asking if he wanted to talk about it. "No, why the fuck would I?" he said with a huff. He really wasn't having it that day. He wanted to talk to Jake, that's what he wanted. But he was too driven to not do that, so he wouldn't think more about his lovely sexuality crisis. He walks over to Wonyoung and kisses her cheek, but just feels disgusted with himself.

What Sunoo said was extremely right, he was not a good cutout for women. He just walked away. He couldn't fuck with nobody that day. He went up to the roof and just sat there. He was SO done. As he just sat up there calming himself down, he felt a vibration in the roof, a slam of the door. He looked back and saw Heeseung. Great, the father figure giving him a lecture. But, Heeseung seemed different. He seemed to notice he didn't need a lecture, he needed some genuine help. "Hoon-ah, you've been different. I know you come up here when something is up. Talk to me, what's wrong?" The younger raven sighed and placed his head on Heeseung's shoulder, speaking quietly "it's nothing, don't worry about me, please.." The elder knew it was hard to pry Sunghoon open, But he wanted to try it. "You've been ignoring everyone for Wonyoung, especially Jake. Are you sure this is the 'healthy relationship you wanted?" Not gonna lie, that hurt Sunghoon. Hearing someone actually say the shit he was doing hurt. Especially from Heeseung. "I just.. I just love her so I want to be with her." He lied through his teeth, maybe a lone tear rolling down. The other could see right through him. "Whenever you need to talk about the truth, come talk to me." Heeseung sighed and stood up, walking off the roof and left Sunghoon there.

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Heeseung was thinking, and he really didn't know if he should tell the friend group what is truly going on with Sunghoon. He thought he should, but it was his personal information.. he was kind of stuck. As he was walking down the hall, he saw Wonyoung. The pretty girl asked him, "hey, do you know where Sunghoon is? He's worrying me.. being so distant." The elder sighed, stating "He's on the rooftop, he needs some time alone. He's just... going through some stuff." He sighed and walked off, not really wanting to tell Wonyoung. It would break her, and then she would tell her friends and then they would hate Sunghoon. Heeseung really just wants to know why he would date Wonyoung. He kinda thought he got it, but now he really didn't. When he talked to Sunghoon, he seemed like such a liar. Heeseung absolutely had to do something, but he didn't know what.

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