I'm not proud of the man I was when I was with her. I was a full on playboy. I only saw women as sexual objects to get with. But it was Diane who was the only one who really challenged me about it. When she came in my life it's like she brought up a mirror to my face. And I saw all my ugliness. When I met Diane, I wanted to change. Seriously. Even without trying, I found myself thinking about only her, when usually I'd think about 10 women at a time. When I was with Diane I didn't want to be with another woman and I didn't want her to be with another man. But Diane kept trying to change me. She kept calling me stupid. Sometimes I'd do something and she'd give me these judging eyes. Eyes of dissatisfaction. I felt too dumb for her post-graduate brain. I probably am. I knew she was ashamed to be with me. A washed up athlete working a bar. In some ways I felt inferior to her—and I didn't know if I liked that or not. She was the most strongest woman I know. Well next to Carla, my great friend and bar maid here at Cheers. I know Diane just wanted me to be a better man. And she did. I was changing I knew it. I could feel it. And I think that's why I pushed her away. I was so used to my ways, it's scary to change. Now I'm a shell of the man I used to be. And a sucker for the man I could've been, if I had stayed with her.
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In Retrospect, My Love
RomanceSam "Mayday" Malone's world turned upside down once he met Diane Chambers. They gave it their best shot, got engaged thrice but never tied the knot; coming to the conclusion that there were just not meant to be. Now old in age, it's been 15 years s...
