Han Jisung grew up in the spotlight. Debuting at 13 as a solo ACE he quickly became one of the biggest sensations of South Korea. However, despite his passion for music, and his love for the stage he had severe anxiety and is very self conscious . B...
As soon as Jisung left Minho's apartment he fell into shambles. He cried as he walked back to his apartment and tried his best not to succumb to anxiety. When he got to his room he fell apart, sobbing his eyes out, wishing there was anything he could do, blaming himself for everything. When Felix arrived home that night after seeing all the posts on social media he knew Jisung needed his space. When Jisung used to get in really bad moods he would just need a few days in his room alone. Felix knew it wasn't healthy but if helping his friend out was giving him space and occasionally knocking on his door with food he would do that.
But after 3 full days shut in his room, and incoming calls from Jisungs management Felix too became worried. He decided it was time to try and get Jisung to come out, he didn't even hear what had happened, although he had his predictions, especially after Minho had missed practice the last two nights, and when showing up looked half dead. Everyone was too scared to question him on what was wrong after seeing all the posts and rumors online. Jisung's company had put out a statement saying the image was fake and that the two were not dating and only coworkers. Everyone who knew the truth flinched and hoped they were both alright, everyone had seen how close the two were before.
Felix opened Jisung's door and grimaced at the blob of blankets and pillows Jisung had nested into. Jisung had his computer set up and was watching an anime when he perked up at his door opening. Felix walked over to the bed, set the plate of food he had brought to try and feed Jisung who he was sure hadn't eaten in days, and curled up beside his best friend.
"Jisung you need to eat," he knew how Jisung could be when his mental health was bad, he would skip meals claiming he wasn't hungry but it would get to a point where he got really sick.
"Mmh I'm not hungry," Jisung murmured, still staring at his anime.
"That's what you always say, when was the last time you ate?" Felix was concerned for his friend, and when he got no response he began again, "Do you want to talk about it?"
"No not really,"
"Well Ji this isn't healthy, and I know you need your time but Joohyun's been calling."
"I'm sure he has," Jisungs tone remained flat, he seemed like he had no emotions at all.
"Your company cleared up everything, the rumors have stopped and they want you to put out a picture to act like nothing happened." Felix wished he didn't have to say this, he wanted to give Jisung time to heal, but he agreed that maybe going back to work would help Jisung think about something else.
"Ok then I'll do that and call Joohyun, thanks Felix," His friend lacked any sincerity, "And thanks for the food, but I'm really not hungry so you should eat it yourself." Jisung gave Felix a soft smile.
"Mmh I'm just gonna leave it here for you if you get hungry, and I'll leave you alone." Felix began to get up, "If you want to talk about it or just need to cuddle I'm always a room away." Felix hoped his friend would be alright.
"Love you Lixxie," A real smile finally presented itself on Jisung's face.
"Love you too babes."
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Jisung sighed as he posted, he had just got off the phone with Joohyun who explained he needed to post something casual to seem unfazed. He also explained how practicing and working on music would be good for Jisung and he needed to start working on his next album. Additionally, he listed his schedules that never seemed to stop such as variety show appearances, magazine shoots and interviews, and a tour he had to start planning and rehearsing for. Just hearing Joohyun list each one he felt tired, he was used to a busy schedule, so why was this so hard for him?
So after posting he got up and decided he would go to the studio and see if work could ease his mind. Though just the thought of going back to normal as if he had never met Minho in the first place felt wrong. Especially when he walked into his company building and the same people greeted him in the same way they had every day, the same then before Jisung's entire world got ruined.
He sat down in his favorite corner of the company building, a nook surrounded by windows suspended 3 stories above the bustling streets of Seoul. Jisung came here to write songs about random people he saw on the streets, creating stories in his mind about the strangers down below. But today his mind could not even focus on that, instead, he thought about his sadness. The emotions he had bottled up for so long. The love he had to just give away.
The words flowed from his pen and they decorated his notebook's pages. Word after word Jisung relieved himself of his pain, his mind clearing with every sentence. He let all his emotions stream onto the page, mixing together in perfect harmony to create magnificent lines of lyrics. He laid out all his inner thoughts that he had shoved so deeply in the corner of his mind. Then he thought about all the good, his relationship with Minho, their Thai dates, the three cats, and Minho being there for him even when he had shut out the world for work. He couldn't help but let that thought grow, was he shutting out Minho again? Placing work over everything else? Jisung just sat there and stared out the windows.
