Not Myself Without You (Bill Kaulitz X Tom Kaulitz x Y/n)

hope he saw

*time skip to the first show*

Life has been going great. Tom, Bill, and I  are just as close as we were as kids. We felt so close together. Gustav and George were growing on me. I saw them both as brothers now. On the other hand, I started to look at Bill and Tom a bit differently. Growing up I had a crush on bill, I mean we both lost our first kiss to eachother.

Tom has always been a cutie.

As I step on stage I saw Tokio Hotel in the crowd. I don't know why but I felt so self cautious today. I wore a short skirt and a tight long sleeve. It was a pretty cold day but I didn't have any good pants so I just wore a skirt.

I don't know why I just felt really insecure about my legs. I felt like I was too skinny, I have had a bad body imagine since I was little but why does it have to come back now?

As I got on stage I felt all eyes on me. Usually, I feel so confident but today I just felt like I wanted to run away and not perform. I didn't smile the whole show.

We took our small 10 minute break during the half time.

"Y/n you okay? You look a little low on energy." Sid says sitting me down.

"I'm fine Sid thanks I'm just a little tired." I instantly get up and head to my changing room locking the door.

I look at the mirror.

"Ugh I hate my legs." I say under my breath. I debate in changing but then everyone is going to think why.

"Y/n time to head back out." I hear Rodrick say.

I dread to step outside, I couldn't stand looking at myself. Why do I have to feel like this.

I walk outside and enter the stage. The crowd goes wild but I don't stare at it. It would make me feel even more insecure.

*Bills POV*

My eyes were only on Y/n.

"She seems off Tom." I nudge his shoulder

"Yeah I noticed since she first walked on stage." Tom says a bit concerned.

I wonder what could be wrong. I see Y/n finally look up to the crowd. Her eyes land on me by accident. I quickly let out a soft smile to let her know she's doing great.

She smiles back at me softly but it seemed forced. This wasn't like her at all.

"I'm actually a bit worried Tom." I tell him

"Me too, maybe talk to her after the show?" He suggested

"Yeah."

*Y/n's POV*

The show ends. I did perfect on my guitar but I just ran back stage. I bump into someone as I run quickly to my room.

"Y/n." I hear Bill say as he helps me balance.

"Oh hey Billy." I say trying to get to my room.

"Where are you going?" He said concerned

"To my room excuse me." I say trying to get him out my way. I wanted to change badly. I didn't want no one staring at me.

"Y/n can I talk to you?" Bill says

"Not now sorry Billy. Excuse me." I say getting a bit irritated, I just felt so insecure I kind of wanted to cry.

As I opened my door Bill pulls me to him and he shoves us both in my room. He closes the door and locks it.

"What's up Y/n? You are acting strange love." Bill says pulling me next to him on the couch