Ever since Summer started my dreams started feeling more surreal.Another bombing dream where I accidentally killed most of the world.Somehow I wasn't too scathed.Sometime after that one I had a dream where everyone is disappointed in me, including my Chorus teacher.
I feel like somethings wrong with me and these emotions I feel all the time.I ended up procrastinating during the school hours a lot sometimes or working very slow.Most of the year I had decent grades until last quarter.I believe I failed some classes but trying to make up the work is pointless.I didn't want to be in the [Initials] Program because of the Internal Assessments and I don't want to go to college.Im sick of how adults think we need to meet such unrealistic standards to pursue careers.None of my parents have even been to college and it's just not for me.Yet I only stayed in it because I wanted to be able to elect my classes.We don't have a fucking [Initials] Program in [State] and I was able to choose my electives freely.But not here.By the time I get home I just want to sleep or read on my phone fantasy novels.Now I have all summer to do just that and I just hate myself.
