Beach house (Jake X Johnnie)

Ch. 15

(Jake's POV)
Fuck, Johnnie and Tara have been in her room for a while now
What are they doing
What if she killed Johnnie
What if Johnnie killed her
What if they're fucking rn
What if they're making out
What if It didn't mean anything to Johnnie
It ment the world to me. I want to do that again
Fuck. I'm scared
Fuck no. No. No. No. not rn omfg no.

(3rd person POV)
The lights got brighter
Every little sound was 10 times louder
He couldn't see clear anymore
His breathing getting heavier by the second
Slowly rocking back and forth trying to comfort himself
He needed something trusted like his bed but fuck
They were in this stupid disgusting house he couldn't just lay on his own comfortable bed
'S-sam-m-' he tried to say in between sobs while now holding his head in his hands and is knees up to his chest
Sam looked up from his magazine at Jake
His eyes widened at the state of his best friend
'Oh fuck' he whispered under his breath before quickly getting up and getting carefully towards Jake
'Jake.. can I touch you?' Sam asked softly
'Y-ea' Jake said barely audible but sam could hear
He slowly put his hand on Jake knee and removed Jake's hand from his head
'Jake can you try to look at me please' sam said calmly
Jake slowly lifted his head but wouldn't make eye contact
'Thank you. Can you tell me who are in this house right now'
'C-ch-olby, s-shamm, j-Johnn-ie a-and tar-rah' he said still sobbing but his breathing getting more controlled
'Good. Tank you, I'm gonna wrap my arm around your shoulder now, is that okay?' Sam said still as calm and soft as ever
Jake slowly nodded a bit unsure but he wanted to try
Sam slowly lifted his arm and put it around Jake
Jake's body tensed up, trying to relax
But he couldn't and after a few seconds he quickly stood up and started breathing heavily again
'Fuck! I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry' he said scrunching his face and rubbing slapping his head while swinging from left to right with his body
'Hey hey calm down don't worry it's fi-' sam tried to calm him down before he got cut off by Johnnie and Tara coming out of Tara's room
'Oh shit' Tara said looking panicked at Johnnie
'What's happening' Johnnie asked Tara silently, scared
'He's probably having a meltdown, don't worry it's gonna be okay' Tara said as she walked towards Jake
'Jake, it's Tara. Can I help you?' Tara asked calmly as sam stood up and walked to Johnnie who had a face of shock and understanding
Sam stood next to Johnnie before Johnnie hugged sam tightly slightly tearing up
'This is my fault' Johnnie muffled in Sam's shoulder
'No it isn't. It's just.. idk how to explain it.. these two days have just been.. much yk' sam explained, still calm
After a while Tara got Jake to calm down
'I'm sorry I got mad. I really fucking overreacted' she said hugging Jake tightly
'No it's fine we just should've told you want you asked. I love you I got scared that you were fucking mad'
'I love you too Jake, don't worry I'm not going anywhere' Tara smiled

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I'm acc fucking proud of this chapter

‼️Disclaimer‼️
What I described here was a (autism) meltdown/panic attack
I'm not saying (in this case) Jake has those/ever experienced those
I'm also not saying that this is exactly how everyone experiences shit like this
This is how I experience stuff like this
I'm not claiming to have autism or any other mental 'disorder' bc I'm not diagnosed but from what I know what I experience is pretty similar to autism/anxiety (you can correct me if you don't agree)
Anyways lyl
And if you experience these kind of things talk to someone abt it like a professional so they can maybe help you understand/get a diagnosis
Take care🖤🖤