The snake and the prince

Unsweetened dreams

Tw. Nightmare angst, censored cursing, anxiety attack (Happy ending!)

Janus POV.

Roman, Patton and Logan all stared at me with a look of disgust plastered on their faces. Thomas rolled his eyes angrily. "We told you, nobody wants you here! Did you really think any of us would accept you?" Logan pointed out. "It's naive to think you could be forgiven, even wanted after all that you have done!

Virgil appeared behind me, scaring me somehow more than I already was. "There's a reason I left you behind, Janus." Remus apprered next to him and snickered.

Roman laughed when Virgil said my name. "I still can't believe you go by f–king Janus! You sound like such a damn child!"

"I dont want to hang around anymore either, Jany. You have fun with your dark s–t!" Remus said to me with the biggest grin on his face I've ever seen.

"We accept you, Remus! We will always be here for you, for everyone!" Patton smiled and greeted the dark side with a hug. "Everybody except..."

Then they all started laughing, pointing, laughing. Thomas laughed through his words as he repeated "I hate you" over and over, almost in a chant. My eyes filled with tears as I stared at the people I hurt. I know I deserve this, but why does it hurt so much??

"Aw, is the little baby crying? I could never love you Janus!" Roman yelled in my face. "Never! I'll never love you Janus...

Janus...

Janus?

Janus!"

I jolted awake and sat up in bed quickly as a reaction to Roman shaking me awake. I felt tears running down my face. It was impossible to breathe. I choked on air as I looked away from Roman in shame.

"I- R-Roman I'm s..sorry please... please dont be- mad I j-I was having a b-bad dream..." I tryed to catch my breath between each word, but I couldent. I sound like a child. I'm acting like a child.

"Hey snakey, breathe, alright?" Roman slowly grabbed my hand, giving me plenty of opportunity to pull away if I desired. I dident want to. I want to be closer. I've been having stress dreams about the light sides hating me for some time now, almost a year. There less often now that I've been accepted, but still come once a week or so. Sometimes I wake up like this afterwards. I try to hug myself back to sleep, touch has always been a grounding thing for me. But having Roman hold on to me made me feel like I could focas on the world again. It reminded me I was here, it showed me this is real, that my dream is over...

"C-an I h-hug you... please? I'm sorry-" I choked again. S–t. What kind of question is that? What am I doing???

But Roman just wrapped his arms around me. We sat like that for a while, until I was able to breathe again. I layed my shoulder on his chest as he waited silently for me to speak.

"Roman, I... appoligize. I understand if that was, well, overwhelming. I dident mean to wake you." As sorry as I felt, hearing his heartbeat was exactly what I needed to calm down right now. I couldent help but be glad.

"How about I sleep in your bed tonight, snakey?" I giggled slightly at the new nickname. "Snakey?" I asked.

"Cus, yk, your half snake. I think it fits." Roman seemed embarrassed about me calling the name outloud. "It's perfect, dear king."

My face must have been as red as the bed at that point. Roman seemed warmer, but I could have easily just been hoping. "Yeah, you can sleep here tonight."

We spent the rest of the night laying together. Roman fell asleep [retty quickly, and I wasent long after. Having him there reminded me that I wasent hated.

Somebody cared enough.

Somebodys here.

I dident dream anymore after that.