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Sezal's POV:
It's November 2021.
I like to film every special moment that happens in my boring life so that when bad times arrive, I can recall my old good memories. It gives me a sense of strength and courage because if I die, who will take care of my pets?
Introduction: I am Sezal, an 18-year-old girl. "Little" in the sense that I am short in height – I'm 5'2". Everyone in high school calls me "shorty," "bear," and all sorts of animal names because I am the fundraiser for my small animal charity group.
My personality type is INFP. Yeah, I'm a huge introvert with zero best friends. I am kind of popular because of my confidence and charismatic, cute personality.
My luck with boys is so unfortunate. I've dated a few guys, but none of them worked out. So now, I am gatekeeping my heart and promising myself I won't fall into these traps again. I've had enough character development.
About my looks? God forgot to give them to me. I have long ginger hair and hazel-brown eyes – not even pure hazel. Like, what? Why? Well, one thing I admire about myself is my natural, plump lips and small feet and hands. That's it. I feel nothing compared to the German beauty other girls have in my high school.
15 Nov 2021, 4:00 AM: I am scrolling through YouTube and saw some videos of cute birds doing cute stuff. I have two cages full of different birds. Each cage has four sections with different breeds of birds.
My mom mostly takes care of them because she is lonely and wants to pass the time by investing her time in some activities. The reason why I don't spend time with these birds is that they all are dumb, and I don't want to invest my emotions in something that can't even reply to me.
Today, I discovered that there is a bird known as a Cockatiel, which is very social and loves its owners. I am going to adopt a male cockatiel today.
After 2 hours: Okay, so I got this bird, and I named him Leo. Now, I feel like investing my emotions in him. Leo is smart and cute, but most importantly, he likes me. After the shop owner clipped his flying feathers and proved to me that he won't fly or bite, I feel the urge to stay close to him all the time, and the fun part is that he likes that too.
After 2 days: Two days have passed, and I think I have successfully tamed my cockatiel. One thing I discovered about Leo is that he is not a baby; maybe he is an adult cockatiel bird and he needs a female because he was mating with my hand! Damn! Now I have to buy one.
While I was talking to myself, my finger kept petting the soft fur of Leo. He was sleeping in my arms. I am scared; what if one day we can't see each other? Will you find a way to me? Because I am a human, unfortunately, and I have done sins, but you are pure. As I was talking to Leo, he opened his little cute gray eyes and looked into mine, as if he was saying, "I won't leave you, no matter what."
"Leo, promise me we will stick together, no matter what happens! You find your female partner or somehow I get married or something." He blinked at me twice with a light chirping sound.
18 June 2022: Nine months passed like a blink of an eye with Leo. He is officially my first love. I have posted on all my social media accounts. Guess what? People think I'm crazy, obviously. In these months, we celebrated my birthday together – I am 19 now. We both spent every minute together – sleeping, eating, gym, even showers.
Tonight, I have to go to a pet shop to buy a new bird. It took me 9 months to made my mind for a new bird. It's really cool outside. I am really excited for today.
5:30 PM: It was an unfortunate evening, as I walked into my room in a rush to change clothes because time was passing by. I heard a horrible sound from Leo. He normally doesn't fly; he was sitting over his cage,
which was placed beside my cupboard. The fan was opened; I forgot to close it. My cockatiel bird lost both his wings and got injured by that mother fucking fan. I lost my senses.
After getting hit by the fan, Leo fell onto my bed with both wings bleeding, his heart was beating so fast. I started screaming so loud that my parents and even my neighbors got scared. My father tried to rescue him; he cleaned both his wings.
The fan destroyed his wings and the feather crown he had over his head. My father kicked me out of the room, and I begged him to let me see Leo, but no. I searched for animal hospitals near me, but in Germany, there is no emergency ward for animals; it would be a miracle to find an open vet near me.
After 30 minutes, my father asked me to come and hold my lovely, precious Leo in my arms for the last time because there was no hint of life left in his body. I tightly grabbed the towel he was in and screamed at everyone to leave me alone.
"Leo, don't leave me alone in this disgusting world, you have to fight!! You know your Sezal is alone; she only has you. Please don't go," I said, choking on my tears.
"Leo, Remember when I got you a beautiful female cockatiel, and you rejected to mate with her because you were in love with me? We promised to stay together; don't leave me, I beg you." Leo looked up at me and blinked slowly as his innocent soul left his body.
I got myself together and found out he stopped breathing, I kept screaming his name for straight 30 minutes. I beat myself and scratched my own hands, pulling my hair so powerfully ,at this point I want to die but I was still alive.
I couldn't handle the pain and got unconscious.
To be continued...
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"Return of his soul"
RomanceI can't breathe, I said beating myself. why him?, it could be me! God can't do this to me. I'll get a heart attack someone please wake him up! I begged everyone around me, even God can't help me now!! ...
