Desires (Her Essence, The Heart's Epitome)

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Xanoya's POV:

"Me? No girl" I said to my closest friend

"Man a crawsis Chyanne" I said for the millionth time

"Whatever Xanoy, wait till Yu buck the right one, weh gi Yu some toe curling fuck" she sounded as if she was reminiscing

"Ewwww chy" (pronounced shy)

She laughed

"Best Yu bring eh pums come gimme yaah"

"Dat me ago do" I said playing along

She hummed

"Mi ago finish wash soon call yu back" I kissed her through the phone then hang up cause if a fi she alone we chat until forever

While pinning my clothes on the line the neighbor walked out n I acted like I didn't see him

Fava shit, kmt

Him nuh dat bad looking but cause him nahve nuh manners him fava shit

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10:49 PM

"Please nuh Xanoy" my sister begged for the hundredth time

"Fine but only fi like a hour"

She kissed my cheek saying thanks then running off to get ready bout she waah go party n mi just as bad

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"Stand up beside me, Yu nahve nuh whine go dung n none come up, yaah train fi go ina the army"

She laughed as if I said the funniest thing but I just looked at her with a straight face

"Oh yu-"

I cut her off
"I'm very serious, yaah 14 not 24"

I sipped my wray and his nephew with some red bull

It was 2 am in the morning when Shenseea start play

Opening my phone I started singing the song n then gave my spliff to J'Nya, my sister (it's pronounced jeh-ny- a)

I then started doing a lil whine then the song changed to fuck Yu mean by Dexta daps

Closing my eyes whike whining only to realize that someone was holding onto my waist. Turning I realize it was someone I knew so I smiled

I stood a bit, and braced on him with one of his arms wrapped around my waist n one of mine touching his face

I rest my head on his shoulder our lips getting closer n just then my big headed brother draw mi weh

Mi woulda shame but oh well

"Wahm?" I ask

"Wahm Xanoy? Wah tf yah do out yah n why Nya out yah wid Yu wid all weed ina r bloodclaaat hand" we stood in the road a little bit from the noise

he grabbed the spliff from her crushing it with his hands

"Money dat eno" I groaned then hiss my teeth

"Gwaan ina the car, uno parents ago deal with uno" I sighed looking at my surrounding realizing his companions were here

Whipping my head around fast to see if I saw right I saw my neighbor leaning on a car with a spliff, a nuh fi him cause mi know him car dem

We made eye contact and he broke it

Oh well

Looking at my brother as he cussed I heard nothing he said, making eye contact with J'Nya she quickly reacted

We both just started crying full on

We hugged Zion and he hissed his teeth

"Naah work eno" I internally shook my head

Poor thing

After about 30 seconds he caved rubbing our backs n saying he won't snitch but we were wrong

We stood shaking our head yes and he sighed

"Gwaan ina the car"

I hummed and went ahead, when me n J'Nya turnt our back to him we smiled n then I realized that one specific piece a shit did a look pon mi so I stopped smiling immediately

I sat in the front seat with the car door open watching as they all left going onto the scene

After a while I spoke

"Ready again?" Nya nodded

As I got up i was immediately blocked

To say I was shocked is an understatement

"Sit"

I laughed out loud holding my stomach

"Come puppy"  I laughed making the kissy sound to call the nonexistent dog

"The puppy a hide" I pouted

"Coulda never blclt me yaah, command like dog" I laugh

He leaned on the car looking at the sky

We were in silence then my phone rang

"Yeah babe" I answered putting the phone at my ear

"Nuh see me a call Yu how long miss ma'am?"

"I'm sorry baby never see yaah call"

"Police lock off eh dance?"

"No, mi brother have mi pon lock down ina the car, yaah come fimme" I stood and was pushed back in the car hitting my head

"Fucking dog shit" I hissed my teeth

"Soon call yu back Chy" I then hang up rubbing my skin

"Come fi yu sister them yaah mn" he said into the phone n then hang up

Brother dearest showed up nd started his lecture

"Yu cyah behave just once Xanoy?"

"Who say a did me? A him make mi lick up mi head" I hissed my teeth again watching as he walked away

My brother shook his head getting in the car

He let us off little bit from the house and said to text him when we got in

Nd I did

I open my window feeling hot so I  took my shirt off sporting my bare skin

My lights were off so I wasn't worried

videoing myself with my hand covering my nipples I smile

I like taking pics like that n then put them in my, my eyes only

I like seeing when I look attractive, as if I could be eaten

I watch back the vids and hold my phone down only to see a face I shrieked and then covered my mouth grabbing my pillow and holding my heart

"What the fuck?"

"Hm" I hissed my teeth n took a foil paper with jerk pork from him that I had ask my brother for

As soon as it reached my hands he left