EXCHANGE OF HEARTS [BL]

CHAPTER 50

"I am the youngest in the four of us. My brother August was taught to manage the court since he's the elder and the one who will replace my father in his position in the court. My sister Artemis was also taught to manage the court as if the second of my brother as well as Amber. Whenever there's a transaction inside the country and outside the country. My parents always brought my siblings with them because that's how they will end up. They taught to manage. On the other hand, in a young age I was taught to kill people."

Race can't held back his shocked.

It must be traumatizing for Atlas to experienced that kind of thing. What kind of parents are they?

"When my parents and my siblings was out of the country for a business trip, I was left to train. Martial arts and how to aim. I'm so young when I held a gun. At first I did not know whay to do with it, and was afraid to hold it. I saw guns before, and young me was afraid to hold it since I saw one of my teacher killed a person. At first they tortured them before they kill them slowly, and I was standing still, trembling with fear. I want to run thay day because it made me sick, I want to vomit, and I run away. After that, I was sicked and had a fever, and it last for three days straight my mother was angry, and father was furious that day. They force me to hold a gun, and that memories kept on taunting me. I was afraid, and I don't want to killl people, but they force me to do it instead.

If I won't do it, they will punish me instead. I hate to be punish because it's hurt, and they won't feed me for a days. I want to eat some delicious food too like my siblings did, but whenever I refuse to kill someone they will punish me and won't let me eat. I'm so starved, and trembling because I have nothing left to me. I am weak. They teach me to be brave, but killing someone won't made me one. They always told me that killing people will make me a brave one, and someday I will understand why killing makes people brave and it's not wrong to kill. Yet, I am stubborn son. I did not listen to them, I refused to hold a gun, and for the first time my father slapped me with a gun I w refused to hold in front of my family, he exclaimed that I am a disgrace in the family, even a small thing is hard for me to do, my father told me that I am gay because I'm not brave enough to hold a gun."

They're sick. How can a parents do that to their child?

Atlas gulped before he continued, but he still didn't meet Race's eyes.

"I cried so hard in front of them because it's so painful. I still can felt the gun on my face," Atlas laughed, but Race taste the bitterness in Atlas's voice. "Oh, I recall. After my parent left me crying, my sibling was there. They stood in front of me, I remembered Amber cried as she held me, while my brother can't met my eyes, and there's Artemis ranted how she hate our parents to do that to me. After that incident, I reflected and said to myself that I'm not gay as my father said to me. I promised to myself that I will be stronger. I promised to myself that I won't cry anymore when my father beat me again. They punished me that night, every time they're eating dinner my father ordered me to stand two meter distance and jusy watched them eat their dinner. They punished me for a days, I always watched them eat delicious food. My father will slapped me if I looked away, so I never did even though I was starving and want to eat some too.

I always watched my siblings treat well with my parents, they eat cakes, chocolates, they drinks fine wine... I want to eat cakes too, I want to eat chocolates too. One day, I was watching my siblings eating delicious food, I cried and begged my father. I begged him to feed me because I was starved. I begged him, aslo said that from now on I will train myself and I will be stronger, and brave as they want me to. I gave up because I was starved. I want to eat those delicious food too. After I begged, my father feed me, and I was so happy. In the morning, I woke up earlier to train, even though holding a gun will made me feel nauseous, I overcome my fear."