Painter in the night| Changjin

Lost boy

He pulled my jeans down opening the zipper, I was embarrassed for once in awhile even though that I knew his self be naked and we did some of the stuff before but it felt so non-proper I don't know the desire to be touched by this man was pumping through the roof roof. I used it. I wanted him and it was secretly my true desire. I knew that I should do something to provoke him so I touched his chain moving my finger up to his ear, as they pushed him up as our eyes met and there was this kind of strange looking in our eyes lost fire and just turned red he touched my lips, brushing his own. It felt like he was so tender with me like I was some kind of flower he was always so rough with those boys when he was fucking around while I was painting him but here I fell just another attention, it was so sensitive and unreal. He was gentle and pulled  down the underwear of mine, pumping my dick and I just moaned out. 

It was one of the first times I opened myself up releasing the arousal sound of mine that I will remember his dick hard and I felt that he was touching me desperately through all of my body.

 I felt his breathe he cursed several times, I felt that he wanted to fuck me for such long time and it was a proper place to do that around this trash bloodstains and just messy room of my flat. It felt so cheap and at the same time so expensive we didn't care where to fuck all and felt was amazing, the way he kissed me the way he sucked my tongue biting a little bit the deep but not too much. It wasn't painful at all. His fingers were going down my member and he knew what he was doing. The other hand came up closer to my mouth as he pulled inside two of his fingers whispering "suck on it", it felt royal. I touched his fingers with my tongue making circles surround it. I felt the desire and the kind of devilish smile coming from him. He said I was going to be a good boy but was in reality good boy I didn't know I really don't know the way his hands slowly moved down just my legs abruptly it was so harsh movement it felt almost illegal. It was not embarrassing but the way how he did it felt so dominant it just open them wide and then looked last time in my eyes just pulling the fingers inside.

 It wasn't one he did two at once, so I hissed in pain. I took my head to the side just throwing the pillow that was close to me in some other direction as I closed my eyes shut and tried to breathe even though it was really painful it was not pleasure. It was my first time and I truly wanted to feel the desire, this satisfaction, the pleasure itself, but it was just so painful and I felt that he saw it that he leaned down to my face brushing the sweaty hair off my face and told that everything will be alright the pain will go off eventually and then I felt that he was going more deep inside and then he pressed some button. I thought it was like a button and I haven't expected, I moaned out loud and it was some kind of point that put me back, was a desire. It was pain mixed with pleasure and it was alright. It felt like he was hitting the point. It was my G place and I threw my head back shutting up face and the eyes and I felt his smile or it was a smirk. I had no idea, he was opening me up because he added more fingers and I fell he whispered something about my body and I felt that he liked it. I knew that I knew how to use my body but it felt so complete. I peeked him and I saw him opening up his jeans and pulling out the his member he was leaking with the pre cum only now I realise how big he was. I have never focused in that moment.

 I have never that much wondered about it and when he just placed it near my butt hole it felt incredibly big. I open my eyes white not knowing what to say and how to react when he came closer just shut me by kissing and he whispered something that it will be alright and that it will fit and I don't have to worry that much and then he said that I should relax but the moment he depended the case and put his tongue inside of my mouth cavity. 

I felt something going inside of me. It was like he was feeling me up. It was like he was like violating me, but at the same time he did it so slow that it didn't fill. That's painful as my friends describe their first time and I try to relax because tightening around him would be how much impossible because I was too tight already, he bit my lap and pushed himself into my neck leaving some kind of marks on me. I felt that he wanted to feel dominating over me. He wanted to mark every single piece of my body. He wanted to show it that I'm already belonging to him that he signed me I didn't know how to feel about that but that moment my mind went completely blank just push inside and stay still it was a moment that I realised that he gave me time to relax and just him but felt unreal. I was sleeping with this man I was just realising it now I put him back and griped on his back under his back and then I just kissed him.

He had his pants down, but they were not completely removed. I could feel every single muscle on his body. It was amazing.  I love the feeling he was giving me. It was some kind of  security and then I whispered to him that he could move on and then he started it was a slow moment. He wasn't hard. I just reminded that the times how he did it was his victims, with those boys. It was different. He was taking the life out of them but he was completely different maybe because it was the fact of the time of virgin and then I felt that he sped up and it felt the same. He was thrusting inside of me like a wild animal. I just was groping sometimes and him or into his back or onto the sheets, the amount of times I moaned and shouted his name that I shouted his name out he wanted me to shout it so much that the whole world will hear me it made sense. I liked him for sure he pulled me up and I was sitting on him and his dick went deep inside me and I could feel it on my belly button, my fingers guiding them to the belly button to touch the thing. It was a little bulge bumping out of my belly felt, so intimate blushed he liked it. He kissed me back whispering some things into my ear. Remember the words he tell but it was so nice, he was never harsh. He was never abusive. He was just praising me like a little cat that he owned and then everything went blank. I remember I was bouncing on him. He was thrusting holding my heaps from both sides and then I remember he shouted that he was going to come but the next moment everything was black. 

I guess I fainted or I fell asleep. I had no idea and then I realised I have never had any security I realised he didn't wear a condom. He went around me on my first time that was cruel for sure. Remember the soft touch of the towel it was wetted was water and he just cleaned me up I guess so and I fell somebody falling beside me, I guess he fell asleep near me not to leave me alone. It was a little moment of appreciation. I was thankful to him. It was nice, but the amount of pressure I felt I could feel his hand touching mine he was playing with my fingers. I have no idea to dream or reality. I just wanted to wake up from whatever was going on in reality.

-Sleep tight pretty thing!