My Obsession

20-Vania

Vihaan fed me morsel from his own hand and he also said that we will eat food from the same plate.

He just gave me thing for which I always crave in my entire life which love and care. In my life my all needs were fulfilled but I never get what I want that is love, care, concern, possessiveness, fun with parents....I never got any of these things. I just crave and many times begged to my parents to love me the way like my friend's parents love their children.

I'm hugging vihaan tightly and crying. He's caressing my back and kissed me several times on my forehead, shoulder, cheeks to calm me down and asked me to stop crying but I was to lost.

"Shhhhhhhhh.......Now, if you even shedd one more tear I will leave from here and then you sit here all alone and cry." He said it little angrily but there's concern in his tone I can feel it. I stopped crying but I went in another world hearing that he'll leave me I went in my trauma world. I hugged him more tightly.

"Please please please don't leave me. I promise that I'll won't cry now. Please please please Vihaan please aap kahi nhi jaa rahe ho, hai na? (You're not going anywhere, right?)" I asked in fear. I've fear that what if he leaves me like other did? "Vihaan I'm scared please don't go." I insist while in between all this, his just hold me tightly and try calm me down.

"Vania" he said my name loudly and pulled me out of my thoughts  from trauma world. I jerk up my head and separated from Vihaan looked into his. There's only care for me in his.

"Sweetie pie, don't cry and don't get scared or afraid of me I'll never hurt you. Trust me when I say this." He said lovingly and I nodded then he further said "I know trusting some is very though thing because when someone broke your trust at that time they are not just broking your trust they broking you in bite size pieces and left you shattered. I know" he just my thoughts. I blink and just look at him.

"Okay tell me one thing why you suddenly hugged me and start crying? Hmmm? Wase mujhe bhi acha lag raha tha I don't have issues let's countinue" he said it with mischievous smile.

"Vihaan I'm too hungry. Let's have dinner." I said while he nodded in agreement.

"Blossom, who teached you cooking?" He asked while feeding me one morsel and he took food for himself. He's feeding me and himself both one by one.

"Kyu tumhe mere haath khana acha nhi lagta? (Why you don't like food cooked by me?)" I asked him little seriously.

He chuckled and said with smile "No blossom, aisa kuch bhi nahi hai tumhe pata hai mai kitna khush hota hu tumhare haath ka bana khana dekhke ?(there's nothing like that do you know how much happy I get when I saw food made by your own hands?)"

"Really?" I asked.

"Yes, really" he said and put morsel in my mouth and then in his own mouth. "By the way, blossom, you didn't answer my question tell me na who taught you cooking?" He asked.

"My nanny and my great-grandmother." I said quietly and bowed my head because I'm missing them both. My great-grandmother is not in this world anymore but my nanny(kanta aunty) is alive. After returning to India I try very hard to find them but I never find her.

"Blossom, are you missing them?" Vihaan asked. I nodded in yes without looking into his eyes. He put his forefinger and thumb under my chin and make me look into his eyes. "You know once I tried to cook and ended by burning the food." He said and change the topic. I laughed a little.

We eat food with little talk and vihaan told that how he try to make cake for her mother's birthday but he burnt the cake and cake became black. Then we told about our school days.

"Very naughty of vihaan" I said

"Yeah I'm very naughty if you want then I can show you after your periods get end up. What's say?" He asked mischievously.