Don't say Goodbye

Cold Heart

Chapter 29

* Krystal's POV *

After a month had past I finally feeling okay right now. Yes, my physical is already fine. But my heart and my mind is still in pain. Pain of feeling hurt by the one you love. Because of L. I can still remember how he abandon me.

Also knowing that.. The heart inside me is not totally mine. It's Jessica's heart. My sister's heart after all.

I remember too what L said, that he LOVE me. I just laughed of it in my mind. Love? How come?

How come that the person who loves you will let you to be in the hands of the person he know that you don't want to be on again anymore? Giving me to my fears? Funny thing withdrawing anything?

Now I understand everything. I also met my biological parents. Kris is now suffering in the jail. And today we're here in the cemetery where Jessica is placed.

I put down the flower in front of her name. "Thank you for giving me this gift Jess. Promise I will take care of your heart" I said, mom tapped my shoulder and hugged me from my side.

"I'm sure Jessica is happy for you Jazz" dad mumbled, I smile warmly.

"Krystal" I feel numb at the moment I heard his voice after a month.

"What are you doing here?" I asked coldly "Leave us for a while mom, dad" I muttered to them and they walked out and went inside the car.

We just left here inside the house of my Sister's lifeless body.

"I won't give up until you forgive me. Even if it will take years, I'm still waiting. Please Krys---"

"I'm not Krystal anymore. I'm Jazzmine. Jessica's sister. But I'm still the girl who you gave up to the man I'm scared of. D'you remember?" I said sarcastically

"I remember it. But believe me or not Krys--"

"Jazzmine"

"Ja.. Jazzmine. Believe me or not I already regret of it. Please let me prove myself to you Jazz. Trust me, I love y--" I cut the crap off.

"SHUT UP! LOVE? Do you know what are you saying? Can you hear yourself? Are you sure? Or you just... You just saying that because now that the heart inside me is my sister's, JESSICA's heart. The real girl you love" I said half shouted,

"No Jazz! I learned to love you. And now I really love you. I mean it! Why not open your mind? Start to hear me. Don't block your mind with your pride! I know I hurt you but I'M SORRY, can you hear that too?" He said now a little irritated with my attitude

No one can blame me.

".. You are the reason why I'm feeling cold for you L. My heart is completely numb" I drama

"That's why I'm saying sorry. I need your forgiveness" he replied humbly

"Is that what you want? Okay. I forgive you but please do me a favor. From now on.. Stay away from me" I said and walked away from him as I enter our car. I let myself to cry.

Tears shed down. I feel pain. I feel bad to myself because I think I've been hurting Jessy's heart.

I was hurt. Literally hurt. Emotionally hurt by him.

"I guess I need to be alone" I mumbled enough for my parents to hear. They know L hurt me but they also know that I still love him. Sometimes I need to be strong.

Maybe we're not for eachother.

We're not meant to be.

"I want L to stay away from me mom, dad" I told them

"Okay Jazz"

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