broken love - yoon jeonghan | book 1

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yeonseo's pov

we made it over to the cafe that was in the city to save us some time instead of going to two different places. i ordered a white chocolate mocha and found a table while the others went to order. jisoo unnie soon came over to sit with me while the guys sat at the table next to us. i was on insta when i saw jeonghan's story and let out a little smile as i reposted his story onto mines-  of course hiding it from my family members besides the ones with me right now.

"yeonseo you sure you don't like yoon jeonghan again" jisoo interrupted my thoughts emphasizing the "again" part.

"trust meeeee i think i'm sure" i replied hearing a "sure....." from the other end.

im just going to speak for my own feelings right now. do i really not like him? for the past few weeks— by this point almost months i'm pretty sure, my feelings were definitely there. but after being blocked for like what 2 hours by now i really doubted what i said to unnie. what i was feeling now was somewhat heartbreak. like i know he was joking with me but i don't even know. i don't know why i feel this way, my heart feels like it's frozen and about to crack, it aches. but once i talk to him again all of a sudden it's mostly gone but i still have this once place in my heart and mind that i know the situation is just going to keep repeating; and i'm not going to even bat a word or say the truth to jeonghan about it. it breaks me. and it's bad. but i don't know what to do. i don't even know this feeling. it happens again and again surely im soon about to get tired of it

my thoughts were slowly swallowed and were left alone for a little once i heard the table next to us chattering was filled with guy talk whatever and some games got brought up between wonwoo and seungcheol until our orders were called leading me to go get them as usual. my thoughts came back into my head but i tried my best to not think about them. i was with my cousins, i shouldn't be thinking about some guy when i'm here right now.

i gave everyone their drinks as we just sat down for a little longer until seungcheol was about to die from being stuck in one place for a long period of time. when this man goes out, we can't stay at the same place for a long time. unless it's somewhere where he really wanted to go and look around in but even while there, he would still be looking for new spots to go to right after.

me? i just follow everyone around. as long as im out i'm fine.

we started walking the streets of the city, making some stops to take pictures for insta (mostly mingyu and jisoo), while i just took scenery pictures of the buildings to post over. unlike the others, me and wonwoo are more into the atmosphere n environment pictures rather than "us" pictures. 

then for fun, we thought it would be fun to take the subway over to myeongdong to go to the night market for some food and maybe some late shopping since we would be there anyways. already KNOW we took the easy way and went on line 2. besides some little quiet pics here and there since the subways are not really a place to be social, we got off on our stop at myeongdong station and went to a random exit to be welcomed with the bustling amount of people here at the night market. all the noise and commotion made my mind clear and let me not think about anything else in the moment besides what was happening now and who im with right now.

we walked around before deciding what to get and when to get it and went into some stores before making our (my) final decision since i don't really have a big stomach.

jeonghan's pov

literally no one is home right now besides me so i haven't really been doing anything. parents left to visit who knows who, haein still at her friends, and all my friends are out with family.

i unblocked yeonseo after like 3 hours of her being out and got some messages that she sent me right after i blocked her

yeonseo
I'M SORRY
bruh
u actually blocked me again
mad fake
sent 4:50 pm

yeonseo
*8 ball game*
oh
i'm still blocked
sent 5:47 pm

me
*plays some parts of the 8 ball sending it over to her*

doing all of this with yeonseo really let me look at our friendship. it's always been like this and i like it. i joke with her, play games with her, and around with her, i even asked her to fake date me. ive been asked multiple times by seungkwan if i would even consider dating yeonseo before; like real date. obviously i said no. i don't see her like that. and i'm sure she doesn't either. i see her as one of my closest friends that i can talk to about everything and she'd always do her best to listen or try to get into whatever i was doing to understand me. i can actually be myself with her. our hate relationship isn't even real. it's literally just based around how we act with eachother.

even though we haven't spoken like how we used to over the few months before we started the relationship, she would always try to talk to me and i would too. i like how we're back to how we used to be and hope it doesn't go away.

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SHORT CHAPTER BUT IM PLANNING TO UPDATE SOON!

here's both sides of the mains to know how they both feel abt each other!