Saving Me From Myself (BoyxMan) (On Hold)

Chapter 6

Danny's PoV

There was something going on with Joe, he was acting weirder than usual when we went up to his room. I couldn't put my finger on what it was, maybe it was all just in my head and I was just imagining all the sneaky looks he was giving me while we watched an old episode of 'Hannibal' to keep us busy. Finally after getting fed up of the looks, I gave an exasperated sigh and turned around to see him giving me an innocent look "Stop staring at me would you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about" he smiled, showing me his pearly whites.
"Oh you know what I'm talking about, what are you up to and why am I starting to think it's going to have something to do with me?"
If it was to do with me then I wanted to take no part in it, Joe's schemes always seemed to end in disaster! He just wasn't the mastermind he acted like.
"I really have no clue what you are talking about, I'm not up to anything and even if it was, I wouldn't involve you in it without telling you."
He looked at me seriously, then smiled cheekily and whispered lowly "It definitely doesn't have anything to do with getting you and James together, at all."
He thought I didn't hear him when he said this but Joe's whispering skills were never great so it wasn't surprising for me to hear everything. I narrowed my eyes and him and shook my head "You are not doing anything like that, I mean it!"
He looked surprised that I had heard him, then as if suddenly remembering he couldn't whisper, he smiled sheepishly as his face turned a light rose colour.
"Why not? It's not that big an age difference and anyway, you would be a cute couple"
He had the audacity to say this to me, even when he knew I didn't like people meddling with my life.
"Because!" I complained.
"Because what?" He was getting annoyed at me now.
"Because what if he sees me at my lowest and decides that's not something he wants to deal with all the time" I quietly answered him.
He looked shocked at first that I had actually opened up to him and told him my fears but then his facial expression turned to one of sympathy "He wouldn't do that Danny, he's not the type of person to up and leave when things get tough. You need to start noticing that not everyone around you is going to leave you, Penny hasn't, I haven't, please remember that and remember we won't be leaving you anytime soon!"
I sniffled and realised that I was crying because of what he had said, I did think everyone would leave, I thought Joe and Penny would have been getting sick of me by now but they haven't! The only thing was that they hadn't seen me at my worst, no one had! How could he expect me to believe him if he hadn't even experienced me unable to function properly. Unable to do anything but depict myself as a deplorable person who shouldn't be allowed to live in the world as all I do is mess everything up! Why would anyone want to be around that sort of person, who only sees the negative in everything? I definitely wouldn't want to, so why would James? I didn't say this to Joe though as he would have only said something that would probably make me feel worse without him intentionally meaning to. He was looking at me awkwardly now as he had never seen me cry before and didn't know what to do to help but I guess he decided quickly enough as he leaned forward and wrapped his arms around me, settling in for a hug. I lifted my arms from where they were resting against my sides and placed them around his back, holding onto him tightly, liking the comfort it brought me. I hadn't been hugged like this in years, not since I came out to my parents and they decided that having no son was better than having a gay son, so they disowned me. Only speaking to me when they tried to get me to go to church to make me realise I wasn't really gay or to go to conversion therapy. Neither was something that appealed to me so I became even more of a disappointment to them for not trying to fix the relationship with them that they ruined because they were homophobic.
I guess I wasn't good enough for anyone if my parents couldn't even love me. But right now I was going to stop thinking about that and enjoy the hug Joe was giving me before it ended.

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I'm back! Sorry for being gone for so long, I hadn't meant to stop writing but I've been preoccupied by school but I'm going to try and spare up some time every week to write so I can get this finished before Christmas next year, maybe 😂
- Kelsey ☺️