Saving Me From Myself (BoyxMan) (On Hold)

Chapter 1

Life wasn't all that good for me, I only had two friends, I was a single child, brought into the world by two of the people that hate me most, and I had depression.  You might think I'm just exaggerating about my parents hating me but it's true, they hate me, all because I'm gay. 

The only things that were good in my life was the fact I was on the school swim team.  Swimming was my life, I loved it.  Swimming took me away from my horrible life and gave me a second chance at having something normal, for a while anyway.  Everything else disappeared from around me and it gave me a sense of freedom.  And the fact I still had two friends that didn't leave me because I am gay, unlike everyone else. 

You see I did have quite a lot of friends at school before I came out, but unlike what I first thought, not everyone is open-minded about homosexual's, meaning over half the schools population.  Some people didn't mind it but kept away from me anyway so I didn't ruin their reputation, but most thought I was a disgusting creature that would turn them if they got too close.  This is excluding my two best friend's in the whole world that stood by me through the whole ordeal.  Joe and Penny are two of the world's nicest people and they are the cutest couple ever, it's like they are made for each other.  They stuck up for me when people called me names and tried to hit me, and they never left when I found out I had depression, they just supported me throughout everything and I can't ever repay them enough for what they have done for me.

My parents are the church going type who think most things are a sin including myself, even though its the 21st century and times are changing.  My opinion is that the bible it just a book a man with schizophrenia wrote when he thought the man who made the world was talking to him, but it was really just him writing his own thoughts on what his perfect world should be like.  But that is just my opinion, you don't need to have the same one as me.

Anyway, enough about everyone else, I think I should introduce myself before I get on with the story.  My name's Danny Peters, I'm 17 coming 18 in a few months, I'm gay but you already know that, I live in Boston but you don't need to know the exact place I live 'cause that's a bit stalker-ish, and I have depression.  You also know that from before but oh well.  I'm not popular, I'm on the swim team, I haven't won a competition before but I don't care, I'm just there to swim.  That's mostly everything about me, I'm a pretty boring person.

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Swimming Competition

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I could hear cheering and whistling in the background but I just ignored it knowing it wouldn't be me that won the school swimming competition because I never win anything and even if I did nobody would cheer for me, that's just the way things are. 

I'm not the most popular person in the school, in fact I'm not popular at all, it's a wonder I even have Joe and Penny as my best friends but I'm thankful they are, they keep me going and if I didn't have them I don't think I would even be here right now.

I was right, I didn't win, Eric did, -he's the most popular boy in school and you can see why he is, he has the looks of a Greek God, the nicest personality ever, he's in nearly every sports team, and he is a straight A student, he is the golden boy- like always but I'm not complaining, why should I?  All I wanted to do was swim and I done that so I climbed up the steps to get out of the pool and grabbed my towel and got ready to go home.

Joe and penny were waiting beside my car when I left the school

"You were great in there, buddy!"  Joe exclaimed, and Penny went along with him,

"Yeah, you were so fast and agile, it's like you belong in the water."

"Thanks guys" I smiled at them, but all I could think was how I didn't belong anywhere.

"Oh yeah, I just remembered that my uncle is going to pick us up on Tuesday, because my car's in the garage."

"I think you mentioned something like that before, in class today Joe" I replied.

"What did you do this time to the car?" Penny joked,

"I didn't do anything, it just needs a new tyre and an MOT!"  Joe looked offended that she had asked him that but she gave him a loving look and he calmed down.

Once I dropped Penny and Joe off at his house, I went straight to my room when I got home, not wanting to listen to my parents incessant chatter about church or them telling me that I can still change and be a good little heterosexual, Christian son to them.  I don't want to change, for them or anyone, I already feel shit being myself so why would I want to feel shit as someone else?

I lay on top of my bed and tried to fall asleep, blocking out the world by putting my earphones in and listening to 'Transatlanticism' by Death Cab For Cutie.  When life gets to hard for me to deal with I either turn to swimming or music, to calm down.  I started thinking about Tuesday and Joe's uncle, would he be nice or a douche-canoe, old or young, hot, and the most important one, would he accept me?  I fell asleep, dreaming of what he would be like.