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12: 𝙄𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢

Happy 6k reads (✪▽✪)!

So so sorry for taking so long again ( ᵕߑᵕ̩̩ ) Had my hands occupied since it was end of the semester week last month, only managed to find free time to work on this recently 🙂‍↕️

Anyway, a lot of stuff to unpack here too!

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I've read in books that the first born daughter would always look like the father.

I don't know why I hate my dad.

Is hate even the right term to use here?

It's difficult to give an answer, not when my said dad is looking more and more sickly as days passed by.

I never managed to look myself at the mirror. I was too small to see my reflection, but, perhaps I should keep it like that.

It's an eerie feeling.

For once, I'm glad I'm not tall. 

I don't want to see myself.

I don't want to know that I look like him.

I don't want to look like the pathetic visage that my father has. Not that my father is horrifying to look at, quite the contrary— I just find the idea of being a splitting image of him disturbing.

Imagine having the same eyes, same lips, and nose of the person that has an obsession with my mother I don't even remember existing.

And yet, I still care for him.

...

I can't be weird for being bothered by that, right?

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"... Furina's in P2, ahh- I really hope she can win today." I mumbled as I enthusiastically settled into the cockpit of the Ferrari I destroyed just a day ago.

Raiden Ei... I still find it hard to believe that she has chosen me as her rival.

She has the talent to prove herself among the best. The Mercedes she's driving has definitely gained speed, so it's no shock that she's achieving better qualifying results than the others on the grid. This is the fifth race of the season, and her team has already introduced an upgrade for their cars, being the first to do so.

With Raiden Ei in the lead, it feels like a bit of a sting. While I don't take rivalries too seriously ad remarked before, the reason she picked me to be her competitor is an oddity I can't pin point. She says I have the skills, that's her reason. But at the same day she established that, I just had to fuck my qualifying up and land in P7.

I feel like a joke. A complete clown.

"__~ you ready?"

Ah, it's Navia.

Though I'm sure she can't see me smiling through my helmet, I did it anyways and greeted back with a grin, "Yeah ,I'm ready."

"Remember the strategies: 'A' is one stop. 'B' is two. We'll radio you if anything changes but at the moment you're on 'B'."

"Furina is on plan 'A' as she's starting on mediums whereas you're on the hard, which means you'll stay on the track longer than her."