Affair Of The Heart

Chapter - 15

Author's POV
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There was pin drop silence in wardrobe section. Tears start rolling down from ishan's eyes as he kept his head lowered, his sobs finally broke that silence.

He start crying loudly while covering his mouth. Shubman slowly retreated his hands from ishan's waist and stare at younger, who is looking so guilty, his tears are proof of it.

"Ish-" He gently tried to call him but got interrupted by ishan.

"No! Please don't say anything! Oh god what have we done?! This is so wrong! We shouldn't be doing this...we..we're brothers! I can't believe i let it go this far! I...I.."

Because of crying too much, ishan start having difficulty in breathing properly. Shubman quickly cupped his face and said worriedly,

"Calm down ish! Take a deep breath..."

Ishan stare at him with his teary eyes, making Shubman's heart ache. He then jerked away Shubman's hand from his face. Shubman stare at him feeling concerned, he can understand what younger might be feeling right now.

"No! No! I can't do this! This is not right...I can't feel this way, no!" Ishan cried while shaking his head.

Ishan turn around before exiting the wardrobe section, he start running towards door while crying badly.

Shubman immediately chased after him and grabbed his wrist to stop him.

"Ish please Wait-" Shubman stare at his back with worried eyes.

"Please Leave me alone!"

Even through ishan's voice was weak because of crying, still it held firmness, leaving no choice for Shubman

Unwillingly Shubman let his wrist go and took a step backward. Ishan hurriedly run away from there while Shubman's kept his eyes on the back of ishan, who didn't even turn around to look at him for once.

"Why are you being so cruel to me, baby?" Shubman muttered brokenly while looking at door.

Ishan closed the door of his own room. He leaned his back against the door before sliding down on the floor. He cupped his mouth and cried hysterically.

He kissed Shubman! Oh god they kissed, not any simple one but a kiss filled with so much passion and emotions. His heart fluttered and filled with tingles but his mind, made him drown in guilt.

Shubman is his brother, they grew up together! They are family for god sake! As much as he wants to forget this reality, he can't.

"It's wrong! It's... It's sick, I should feel sick but why? Why my heart is fluttering?! How will I face mom and dad now? Just what have I done!!" Ishan rambled between his sobs and hiccups.

He slowly gathered himself and stood up, walking infront of Mirror. He let out shocked gasp as he stare at his reflection in Mirror.

He touched his lips which are badly swollen and deep red, an evidence of what they shared in Shubman's room.

He still can't believe just how stupidly he give in to his feelings but then again, how can he not, when his heart was yearning for it. He wants to whip himself for wanting it again.

"Why god, why are you torturing me? I can't reciprocate his feelings, I shouldn't! But I'm torn between my heart and my conscience, what should I do?!" Ishan cried to himself.

Don't know after how long crying, ishan wiped his tears and walked out of his room. He needs to talk to someone, let out all this infront of someone as his feelings are consuming him slowly.