Will & Mike - found heaven [byler]

Found Heaven (title track)

"You need love, you need one, you need him"

"You'll never get your mama's wedding ring, father always said you ruined everything. But you prayed, begged and prayed, heart unchanged"

"Don't be scared, little child, You're no demon"

"Don't be scared, little child, of that feeling. You're in love... You found Heaven"

...

You know, ever since I was a child I wondered what was wrong with me because every single one of my friends either had crushes on girls or had girlfriends. I had none. Am I weird?

I thought I was loveless. I didn't know what a crush felt like. "You just know" they said, but I never knew. "You'll find a girl eventually" but I never did. 

Was something wrong with me? Girls had had crushes on me before and I had tried to like them back but I just couldn't because whenever I thought of kissing them it just felt weird. I'd always tell myself it was because I just didn't like that specific girl but this happened with every single girl I met and, you know, it was weird being the only one who felt  like this.

Whenever I didn't know whether I had a crush or a platonic crush on someone I imagined me kissing them and it never worked on girls, because the answer was always "ew. no". 
The only person who I could actually imagine myself kissing - and liking - was my best friend.

...

"Will"

"What, El"

"I'm bored"

"Well, what can I do? Just call your boyfriend or something"

"Yeah, we're meeting up in an hour at the park. I just thought, in the meantime, we could do something"

"Like what?"

"Just talk. It's been so long since we actually had a conversation"

That was true. It had been so long since I last talked to El, and I think that was because, well, I kind of had a crush on her boyfriend. And it was weird because, first of all, I'm El's stepbrother, and second of all, his boyfriend wasn't a girl.

"Yeah- okay, sure. Just ask questions, I guess"

"Okay... uh... how's school?"

"Well, honestly, not good. You know about all of the bullying"

"Yeah, I just thought... I thought maybe it got better"

"Thank you but it fucking didn't. Sorry. But it didn't."

I watched her stare at me with her big beautiful eyes. I could see she felt bad for me and I loved her for that, but it killed me seeing that she was such a sweet and caring human being, because that was probably the reason Mike was so in love with her.

"Yesterday some guy called me gay because of what I was wearing. Like what do my clothes have to do with who I like, that's just ridiculous."

"I'm so sorry Will, that sucks"

"It does, yeah"

"And that's not even true, like if you were actually gay it would be different but you're not"

I wanted to say something about that but I didn't, it'd just make things weirder and she wasn't ready yet to know that about me.

"Yeah"

"So, Will. Do you like somebody?"

"What?"

"I mean if you have a crush"

"Oh"

Well I definitely did.

"No, not yet"

"Aw. That's sad. But don't worry, you'll find the perfect girl for you eventually, just like I did with Mike. You're gorgeous, I can't believe you don't have a girlfriend yet"

That made me so mad for no reason. I wanted to tell her, really, but I wasn't ready.

"Don't you have a date with your boyfriend in like 5 minutes?" I said just to change the topic.

"God, you're right. Well, I better get going, thank you so much" then she packed her things and left.

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(sorry for this but here's the playlist I made for this fanfic ♡) (SONGS NOT IN ORDER AND DEFINITELY NOT FINISHED YET. SEND ME SONG SUGGESTIONS IF U THINK THEY'D FIT)

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7IxtFve8rQ0hViKJBhyyCA?si=80cd8b4ec2514f6e&pt=fa35fd6082d540dd547af3b082d7748e 

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