Will & Mike - found heaven [byler]

Disaster

(this song is not on found heaven but on superache, his sophomore album)

"This could be a disaster, there's so many factors, like what if you freak out and then we're losing it all at the critical chapter where I say "i love you" and you don't say it after?"

(this chapter will be longer than the others due to Will overthinking)

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I woke up the next morning feeling dizzy and wondering if all that had happened had just been a dream.

I got dressed and then stayed in my room for a couple minutes before going to school - because I had woken up too early.

I checked my phone and saw a message from the unknown number, which I saved as "Mike 💙".
The message said "sorry for leaving, i remembered we had school next morning and had to. also bc u fell asleep :)"
I replied with "yeah dw i assumed!!"
He saw it right after I sent it, and replied with "see u at school <3".

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I arrived too early to school so there was obviously no one there, but for one person. From the distance I couldn't see who it was but when he got closer I saw that it was Mike. My heart jumped: he had arrived too early aswell. Was it for the same reason as me?

"Hi" he said.

"Hi..." I was too shy, even though he was the only thing i had been thinking about for the past hours.

He took a deep breath before saying anything else.

"So... How are you?"

"Great, I... I'm fine. I'm really tired, I haven't really been able to sleep"

"Why are you so early then?" he giggled.

I giggled nervously back because he obviously already knew: I was hoping to see him before school started.

"So... Are you okay?" he asked.

"Well, you know."

He grabbed the back of my head gently and kissed me, something that I didn't expect at all.

"I love you" I said, but the bell rang after and he just ran to class before saying anything else, something that gave me lots of anxiety. Did i just tell him I loved him? Did he not reply because of the bell or because he wanted to avoid the situation - meaning that he didn't love me back? I had only told him that because I remembered him saying it last night but what if it had just been an illusion, what if I had just wanted him to love me and imagined it? I had loved him for so long but love is something more than just having a crush, the chances of him not loving me back were high. Very high.

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When school ended I went looking for him until I finally found him talking with his new friends. I waved him hi but he ignored me. I thought that was weird so I just texted him and he picked up his phone and started writing. Then, one of his friends looked at him and said something that made him leave me on read and put his phone back in his pocket. I didn't know what to do after that so I just left. 

Walking back home I remembered the "I love you" thing and everything just made sense for me. He definitely didn't love me back and was too scared to tell me he didn't so he hid it in front of his friends. 
But that didn't make a lot of sense either because none of his friends knew about our thing. Did we have a thing? Did he actually care about me?

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When I arrived home I just started scrolling through our texts on his second number but then I found something weird. "I love you". He said that. If he loved me then what was happening?

I heard a sound outside my window and next thing i saw was him in my room.

"Hi"

"What are you doing here?"

"I don't know, I just wanted to be with you"

"Why?"

"What do you mean why, Will?" he smiled softly "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, yeah I'm okay"

That response didn't seem to convince him.

"Why did you leave me on read?"

"I was with my friends"

"Some of your friends were with their phone aswell"

"But they were all texting their girlfriends, and I can't tell them about our thing anyway. You know how they'd bully us. Like oh my god, Will, they're even bullying you now because of the rumour that you're gay"

"I hadn't really thought about it that way"

"Yeah no, but I can't tell anyone about this without your permission or without having even figured out whatever the fuck I am"

"I'm gay"

He laughed "I know"

He kissed me and then hugged me.

"I love you" he whispered

I almost cried at that. It had just been my mind. He did love me.

"I love you too"

He looked me in the eye "You really do have beautiful eyes"

"I know, you told me"

It hadn't been a disaster after all. 

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