Satoru x Reader {Set Me Free} JJk FanFic

43 - Y/N

I nodded."Yeah, it's enough for now," I whispered, not answering the expiration date thing again. I took his face, wiped away his tears and kissed him "I'll wait," I breathed against his lips and kissed him again.He returned the kiss and I simply enjoyed the closeness. I suppressed the fear that we might really have an expiry date and wouldn't stay together forever. At the same time, I wondered whether I would even be allowed to leave in the end if Satoru really decided never to have children. Will I be able to cope with that? Will my heart be able to cope with this pain? These questions worried me, but right at that moment, I just wanted to be WE.

Timeskip 3 months laterI was sitting in the car and kept staring at the estate on the other side of the road. I had finally made up my mind to talk to Yuji. He'd sent me crazy messages and I'd left something on his answering machine at the party.We were both out of our minds when we did it, so that was still forgivable, right?I groaned and leaned back in my seat. I was sitting in one of the expensive cars Satoru owned and had been standing here for almost 30 minutes. I was still fighting an internal battle and couldn't bring myself to ring the doorbell.Satoru knew I was here, of course. Since our intensive conversation about 3 months ago, we had kept to it and communicated honestly with each other. We were both surprised that things were currently walking so well between us. We hardly argued, the press hardly wrote anything and I had even made up with Riko again. I had also stuck to my guns and no longer held his past against him. He didn't talk about Yuji any more either and we could actually say that we were really happy at the moment.The sex was good as always, of course, but we also got on really well in terms of our relationship. Everything was really walking to perfection.And that's why I had finally decided to come here. If only it wasn't so difficult. I rested my head on the steering wheel and sighed. Suddenly the door opened, so I sat up frantically as Yuji came out of the house."Okay, it's now or never," I said to myself and jumped out of the car. Before Yuji could get into his car, I walked to him with quick steps across the street and stopped him. "Hey," I greeted him a little awkwardly and tried to smile.Yuji looked at me in confusion. Completely perplexed that I was here. "Erm... Hi?"I scratched my head and smiled a little quizzically."Hey," I said again and pressed my lips together. Okay, you can do this, I said to myself. "Erm ... so ... I'm here," I started and ran my hands over my face. "I ... well ... I wanted to talk to you. We had a really weird break-up at the summer party and ... then the thing with your messages and my voicemail on your answering machine ... and the thing with Yuki .... God ... it's kind of awkward ..." I stuttered and took a deep breath "So ... I wanted to ask ... how you're doing and if you can forgive me," I finally said what I wanted to say."Unpleasant? Our friendship is a mess, if it still exists at all. I ..... he knows you're here?" he asked a little snippily, not knowing where to look. "I .... the news was really weird, wasn't it?" Now I was scratching my head too."Yes, Satoru knows about it and even encouraged me to come here. Our relationship has had a little change and we're currently on a good path," I explained and took Yuji's hand. "I know that I was also to blame for this mess and that's why I wanted to apologise to you. I still care about you and I hope that we still have a chance," I explained and tried to smile again. I blinked a few times because I was still feeling a bit dizzy. Had I moved too fast? "Haha ... yes messages, shall we just forget about them ... or ... um is there anything else you want to tell me?" I asked, fighting the dizziness.He laughed and then grinned cheekily at me. "I'll forgive you if you forgive me? Deal?"I blinked again, but smiled with relief."Deal," I said and walked closer to him. I put my arms around his neck a little hesitantly and pressed myself against him. "I've missed you," I whispered, squinting my eyes tightly. My ears suddenly closed and I felt like I couldn't breathe. "Shall we?" I began, wanting to just ignore the feeling and hope that it would pass.But it didn't, I squeezed my eyes tightly shut again and opened them again, blinking and looking up at Yuji. But the world was spinning and suddenly my eyes went black and I lost consciousness.When I came round, I was already in hospital and Yuji was sitting in a chair next to me."I really just passed out?" I asked him in surprise and could hardly remember. I looked at my arm and had apparently been given an IV as soon as I arrived.Yuji looked at me worriedly. "Do you know what a fright you gave me? One minute you want to hug me and the next you're unconscious in my arms. I tried to wake you up for five minutes before I brought you here. The doctors took you and ... I don't know. Test done? And now you're here," he said, taking my hand. "Is everything okay? Are you feeling better?"I tried to smile, but I also wondered why I had suddenly fallen over. I had suddenly just felt so dizzy."Sorry for worrying you," I apologised. "And thank you for bringing me here," I added. I clutched my head and closed my eyes. "I just hope it's nothing serious," I mumbled. I opened my eyes again and looked at Yuji. "Yes, actually it is. I just feel a bit run down," I explained and we both looked towards the door as the doctor entered."I'm glad you've finally woken up, Lady Gojo," he greeted me and smiled kindly."Yes, I'm glad about that too. Um... is everything all right with me?" I asked uncertainly, squeezing Yuji's hand. The doctor looked at the documents pinned to a board and then smiled at me."I'd say you're in good spirits," he said and I looked at him in confusion."I don't understand," I replied."Congratulations, Lady Gojo, you're pregnant," he congratulated me."What?" I asked, stunned and overwhelmed. At that moment, I caught sight of Satoru, who was standing behind the doctor in the doorway. My eyes widened when I saw his shocked expression.Yuji blinked at the doctor and then looked at me as he squeezed my hand tighter."She's... you're pregnant?" he asked me, but my gaze remained fixed on Satoru.He was trembling and all colour had drained from his face. He shook his head in the negative and went to the doctor."She can't be pregnant, she's on the pill.""No ... that's not good," I whispered so quietly that only Yuji could hear. It suddenly felt like someone was placing a huge stone on my chest. It was hard to breathe and I didn't feel any happiness. Normally, people were happy when they got news like this. But not me. And the only reason I couldn't be happy about it was Satoru. Things were walking so well between us right now, it would ruin everything."She can't be pregnant, she's on the pill!" Satoru said angrily again. The doctor seemed confused by our reactions.He turned round to Satoru. "Lord Gojo, even if Lady Gojo has taken the pill, it can lead to pregnancy. I can explain why," the doctor began to speak calmly and then looked at me. "The pill is not a 100 per cent contraceptive method. There may be various factors why your wife has become pregnant anyway," he continued seriously. As if he was indirectly condemning us for not having informed ourselves better. But he remained respectful, after all, we were royals. But his words hit like a bomb."Y/N-," Yuji began, but was then interrupted."How far along is she?" Satoru enquired without looking at me.The doctor looked at his documents and then back at Satoru "Lady Gojo is about 8 weeks.""Two months," Gojo whispered, clenching his hands into fists. And then he finally returned my gaze. He swallowed, cleared his throat and ... took a step back. Then another. He shook his head. Again and again."I ... I have to get out of here."I raised my other hand and tried to stop Satoru."Satoru," I whispered, completely overwhelmed by the situation. But the thought that he was now leaving me alone with this situation hurt. "Please ... don't go," I got a little louder and stretched out my arm as if I was trying to reach for Satoru.He made a pained face. "No, I ..." He took another step back. "No," he said again. "Come on, man. Don't be an ass," Yuji said, confused and reproachful. I furrowed my eyebrows."Satoru ... I ... I need you now," I said, slightly frightened.I hadn't planned this either! It's not a happy moment for me either. Because I knew how Satoru felt. Was this the death knell of our marriage?Satoru looked at me for a long time. Then he looked at the doctor."She's fine, isn't she? She's healthy?" When he nodded, he nodded too. And then he left without saying another word. He turned on his heel and disappeared.The doctor looked at me again and sighed."Lady Gojo, before you leave the hospital, please see the gynaecologist on the ground floor. You can discuss everything about your pregnancy there," he informed me and went to the door. "I still wish you both all the best," he said and left the room.I looked at the door, behind which Satoru had disappeared and then the doctor. The way Satoru had looked at me. I put my hand on my chest and squeezed Yuji's hand even tighter. "This will be the end of our marriage," I murmured, tears welling up in my eyes. I couldn't get the look on Satoru's face out of my mind."He doesn't want a child, does he?" asked Yuji.I shook my head and wiped my eyes with my sleeve."No," I replied and pressed my lips together. Slowly, my hand slid down to my stomach.I felt Yuji's gaze on me, he swallowed hard and let go of my hand."I'll take care of it, okay? I'll get him back. He's probably just ... overwhelmed," he tried to cheer me up.He walked to the door and stepped aside as my in-laws entered. He greeted Satoru's parents respectfully and then disappeared too. I looked after Yuji. He would take care of it? He .... Is no longer against our relationship?When Yuji disappeared and my in-laws suddenly entered, I quickly wiped my face. Satoru's father, of all people, would hit Satoru again if he realised what was going on."Hey," I greeted them both and put on a smile, "sorry for worrying you."Satoru's mum sat down by my bed and took my hand "Are you okay, love?""Yes, I'm fine. I just passed out," I explained and squeezed her hand."That's normal in your condition. Many women struggle with circulation problems. The first trimester in particular isn't easy," she explained warmly and beamed at me, but squeezed my hand tighter so that Satoru's father wouldn't notice. I swallowed. "Congratulations, my child. I'm looking forward to becoming a grandmother," she said, but I knew that she had actually wanted us to have more time."It seems to me that my good-for-nothing son has finally got what this whole thing was set up for." He crossed his arms in front of his chest. "Then I guess the Gojo family name has been cleared."I nodded to both of them and placed my free hand on my stomach."Thank you," I whispered, thinking of Satoru. I'm so incredibly sorry. I thought and replied unhappily, "Yes, we've finally done our duty.""Pah, we've had to put up with the rumours about your empty belly for long enough," commented Satoru's father, annoyed.I tensed up."Yes, father-in-law, I'm sorry it's taken so long," I replied, my head with Satoru.Where had he gone? I wished he was by my side."I'll find the doctor and ask him when we can issue a press release. After all, the pregnancy is safe at a certain point," he said seriously. I looked at Satoru's mum and then up at his father."Do.... Do we want to keep this a secret?" I asked desperately. Because I didn't know from what week onwards it was no longer possible to lose the child. And I didn't want to make it public just yet, especially not if nothing had been finalised between Satoru and me."The sooner people know, the better. And if you lose the child, well, they'll still know that my son has done his duty and you could try again," he said and left the room.I looked after him, speechless. How could he just say that? As if the thing in my stomach was just a tool and not a living being! He was just heartless! How clearly he showed that he didn't give a shit about his son! He didn't even ask where Satoru was or why he wasn't here. I turned my head to Satoru's mum."I'm sorry" I said quietly at her words at the time. "That wasn't planned" I admitted."You have nothing to apologise for, dear," she said warmly again, patting my hand. "For nothing at all. I'm sure Satoru will be very happy when he hears about this. Where is he? Hasn't he been here yet?"I closed my mouth and couldn't look at her. Suddenly it all came crashing down on me and I started to cry. I didn't answer, I just cried."Honey, what's wrong? Are you not feeling well? Should I see the doctor again?" my mother-in-law asked worriedly. I shook my head."Can you... just hold me?" I asked, sobbing. I wish Rosell was here. I just felt left alone with everything right now. And I couldn't even be angry with Satoru because I knew how he felt. That's why I felt all the more sorry."Of course, child," she said and took me in her arms. "It's probably just the hormones."I just nodded and closed my eyes, it would be nice if it was just my hormones. I thought to myself sadly. Suddenly the door opened and a nurse came in."Excuse me Lady Gojo, but we have to prepare you for discharge". Said the nurse. I took my distance from my mother-in-law."I see," I said quietly.