He was standing at the other end of the hallway and all I could do was stare at him. His eyes, once full of happiness, were now filled with sadness. I missed him so much yet all I could do was watch him from afar. I stared at his sad face knowing that I was the reason for his pain.
As I turned around, I was met by none other than Jenna. This girl had been following me ever since she had talked to me. It was really starting to bother me. Not that I didn’t like her. It was the opposite. The more she was talking to me the more I was starting to appreciate her. I couldn’t like her.
If I started a friendship with her, I would have to tell her that I’m sick and I didn’t want that.
“Hey, it’s me again!” She said.
I faked a smile not wanting her to notice how annoyed I was.
As we walked into class, we were stopped by a boy I had noticed a few times in the hallways.
He was smiling at me. I let out a laugh of embarrassment.
“Hi, I’m Noah. I’m a friend of Alex.” He said.
My heart dropped as I heard his name. Staying away from him was going to be harder than I thought it would be.
“And why would I care?” I asked trying to look unbothered.
“Oh, I just thought that-”
“Well, you thought wrong.” I cut him off before walking away.
I felt bad for talking to him that way, but I didn’t want to talk about Alexander. It was too painful.
I took a seat in the back hoping that Jenna hadn’t followed me, but I sighed as I saw her in the chair next to mine.
Our eyes met as he walked into the room, and I couldn’t help but cry. He was there in the same room as me and I couldn’t even touch him.
The lesson started as soon as the teacher walked in. These were the longest two hours of my life.
Because the whole time, I spent it thinking about him.
Lunch time had finally arrived, and I couldn’t be happier. Usually, I would skip lunch but as I was still being followed by Jenna, I had no choice but to eat. I sat around a cafeteria table hoping that she wouldn’t try to talk to me.
“So, how do you like our school so far?” She asked.
“It’s fine, I guess.”
Jenna kept talking to me, but I had stopped listening as soon as Alexander had walked into the room. He was sitting around a table with a whole bunch of people I didn’t know. He seemed happy. There were a few girls around him. They were laughing at what he was saying.
As he looked back at me, I suddenly felt nauseous. I got up and rushed to the bathroom. Lucky for me, I arrived in the toilet right before I started throwing up. I felt like my soul was trying to come out of my body. I sat there for a moment until I heard someone knocking on the door.
“Are you okay in there?”
I stopped as I recognized his voice. I didn’t know what to do. He was waiting right behind the door. I slowly opened it and walked past him. I wiped my mouth with paper and then started to wash my hands.
“This is the girls' bathroom, in case you didn’t notice.” I said coldly.
I tried to walk away but I stopped as soon as he grabbed my arm.
“Look, you can push me away all you want but I know there’s something you’re not telling me.” He said.
I looked him dead in the eyes while trying not to break down.
His eyes were begging me to talk to him, but I couldn’t.“I just don’t get it, Nova. We were fine, everything was fine.”
“We were fifteen, Alexander, did you really expect it to last forever?” I asked.
He let go of my arm and I could see the pain in his eyes.
Jenna soon walked in, making the situation even worse.“Hey, are you okay?” She asked.
I couldn’t help but snap at her.
“God, when are you gonna stop following me like a lost puppy?”
I could tell she was hurt by the way she looked at me. I regreted what I had said immediately.
“Don’t worry, I won’t bother you anymore.” She said.
As she walked out, I started crying uncontrollably. She was trying to be nice, and I took all my anger on her. I felt like I was ruining everything around me.
I spent the rest of the day thinking about what had happened. When I wasn’t thinking about it, I was sleeping. I felt more tired than I had ever felt before. It probably had been caused by the events from earlier.
When the bell rang signaling the end of classes, I rushed to the parking lot. When I got into my father’s car, I noticed that he was staring at me. At least, I thought that he was staring at me. I looked through the window to see Alexander walking to his car. I looked down and started fidgeting with my rings.
“You still haven’t talked to him?”
I shook my head as an answer. I heard him sigh before he started the car.“I know you think it’s the right thing to do, but is it really? It doesn’t seem to make you happy.”
I looked at the road not wanting to stare directly at him.
“Who cares if it doesn’t make me happy? I’m dying anyway.”
Maybe it was a bit harsh, but it was the truth. We both had to face it. I was going to die soon, and there was nothing we could do about it. I had decided to stop the treatment because I couldn’t keep hoping forever that it would work.
As I laid in bed that night, I realized that I had no one to talk to. I was alone and it was all my fault. I pushed everyone away, not realizing how much I needed a friend.
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Losing You
RomanceNova Reed and Alexander Webb used to be best friends. They were inseparable. That was until Nova disapeared without a warning. Ever since she left, Alexander as been thinking that he was the reason why. Well of course he was right. But the reason w...