How did I end up with someone so unattached? So unbothered? Someone who treats me as a pest, and is only nice when I do things for them?
Someone who tells me they'll do things with me and then cancel an hour before every time.
Who gets mad when I ask for attention
Who only gives attention when they want sex.
Who will tell me they need me and want me and can't live life without me
But treats me as if I have to live life in their shadow.
Who doesn't even look at me with anything but dead eyes.
How did I end up questioning if it's always going to be like this?
I want so badly to someone to just look at me with eyes full of love and not ask me for sex
Someone to enjoy my presence
Someone who doesn't want to stay a bum and drink alcohol all day
Someone who wants to spend time with me please
Please please please please please please
What did I do wrong
