Broken Family
There, I realized why her parents were emotionless and never shed a single tear for their daughter.
#2 Hey Journal!
I was praised in my flower painting, and Ian's not artistic as I thought. He told me he drew a dog, but it really looks nothing like it.
I showed it to Grandma, and she said she was so proud of me. Then I gave her flowers and made them a crown.
Journal... Mom and Dad are arguing right now... I hear them say papers and "Divorce." Just because of me.
Grandma says it will be alright to live with her. Because my parents are just mad with each other.
"Errien... faced more adult affairs. Yet, She never spoke about anything about this." I said
#3 Hey Journal!
I got 1st place on singing contest! Even Beatrice says I'm just lucky. Even though I'm sure i wanted to see mom and dad attend the show.
But, in the end, they didn't... Grandma was there clapping and cheering me. I even saw Ian there.
Journal... I heard Grandma say they both signed the paper and read divorce in the library section.
Will I be parentless? Because I saw one teenager reading about it to and told me mom might take me. Because she is given birth to me and rights or dad due to financial support.
Why do they divorce? Is it because of me? Is it the secret I never tell?
Why do I need to choose between mom and dad? What's custody?
I'm scared ,but grandma said it would be alright and I picked her instead of them.
Mom's guy is hitting me like dad's secretary, even pulling my hair like I'm some doll.
" Errien... was abused..." I said.
#4 Hey Journal!
It's my 9th birthday! Grandma and Ian came with his friend William... I call him Liam.
There, I remembered Liam as a jerk. Who blackmailed me from Errien to stay away from her. I resumed reading it.
Ian was pretty much annoyed when I called him the shortie. Even stated he was 5 flat at age of 9.
I'm 5'2, and William said he was 5'5. Grandma said Ian might be a late bloomer.
I had fun... but my parents didn't come to greet me, unlike before they even baked cake.
Journal... my grandma called them so many times, and yet they hung up the phone.
Did they forget? Did they really abandon me like Beatrice said in the bathroom.
Am I a bad daughter?Did I do something wrong? Why are they like this.
There, I felt more stupid and frustrated not realising this before.
#5 Hey Journal!
I went to my father's office and he slapped me after calling his secretary a witch. Even that secretary pushed me off and insulted me and grandma.
There, I dash off and told me his not my father anymore. Then I ran out to my mom crying, but she just pushed me away and told me she didn't know me. As she walked out, she left me.
I hugged her and asked her if she even loved me. She shoved me away and said, " I regret giving birth to a girl stupid like you..."
Then she told me she wished that she aborted me if it wasn't for grandma's wish. Even called me a mistake, child.
Journal... why do they hate me? Am I really a mistake, child?
"Errien... " I said I clench my fist and sigh.
#6 Hey Journal!
I stayed up in the rain and got sick...
"What????" I asked
#7 Hey Journal!
It's been a week, and I wasn't able to move due to high fever 40.1 °C. I wake up at the hospital and hear grandma crying.
Because of my condition every night. She called my parent irresponsible and ruthless towards me.
Journal ... I know now... I never wanna make grandma worried. Same with William and Ian, too.
They visited me, and that made me happy. Picking up flowers specially Ian. Every flower dried up and lost petals ,but I saved one dried snowdrop that Ian gave.
There i looked at the flower in laminated plastic sealed with taped to attached it to her note with a writing. "This is now my favourite flower." Pointing at the flower.
It made me realise that no matter how many left there is one's will stay like them.
So, Journal I'm really thankful having them in my life. Especially, Grandma I'll always make her smile and take care of myself to make her not worried.
"Errien... pfft.." I said slightly smiling.
#8 Hey Journal!
I never tell anyone my family situation except me and grandma. But, I don't care anymore.
From now on, grandma is my family and it's still perfect.
I just to need to keep smiling and do what I do the best.
" with a broken Family..... she manage to overcome it in early age. Errien ... you are really brave and awesome." I said smiling tearing up.
#9 Hey Journal!
I have a crush!
There I looked at it with my eyes widen. Since Errien never share her preferences or even types in guys like I hear girls yapping about.
When I looked at it was left blank that fooled me and got my hopes up.
" Are you kidding me?!" I asked.
There I saw other words with blanks.
I love________________ because his always there and maybe when I met him. I met my crush! ♡◇♡
Maybe I'll write all his preferences as a hit more.
There I turned the pages through and through with seeing the preferences.
"Errien...." I said facepalming.
There stopped reading for a while and managed some stuff or chores I do.
Then fed Rian after that I took a bath to refreshing up. As I read her notes further that night.
Until, I fall asleep and there I dreamt about our first met and what we talk about.
She was asking about the kitten. I saved and I looked at her with smile.
