One-eyed Ronin

Chapter 12

Ronin's POV

I saw Samantha's sincerity and concern in her eyes. However, I don't want to fit in and tolerate the homophobia of her friends. They are not a loss in my part. So, I just declined Sam and went to my car.

However, she followed me and went in the passenger seat.

"I'll go with you."

Since she doesn't have plans in leaving me alone, I decided not to go home.

"Okay, we'll go somewhere else. I'll take you to different bar resort here."

She smiled and buckled her seatbelt. When we arrived in the venue, we talk about something and had a few drinks. We also joined the crowd in dancing. She was smiling and laughing with me, while vibing with the song.

However, when the "Beauty and the Beat" played in the background. An idea pops up in my mind.

Samantha's POV

I'm enjoying the music while dancing with Ronin. I placed my arms and encircled it around her nape. However, I get sad when she suddenly removed my hands.

I also got confused as Ronin guided me in the center where I heard an upbeat song.

Body rock
Girl, I can feel your body rock (aye-aye-aye)

Ronin started dancing. The audience then slowly made the center area open and now it seems like Ronin is dancing for me.

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The people are hyping her up. I also saw two men from the audience also danced in her back. Now, it's really an adorable dance performance. Then when the chorus played in the background, the crowd went wild.

'Cause all I need
Is a beauty and a beat
Who can make my life complete

Ronin waved her body and danced closer in front of me. It was really a sensual dance in that segment, and she really looks hot. The girls are even cheering for her.

It's all 'bout you
When the music makes you move
Baby, do it like you do (uh, uh)
'Cause you

She winked at me and continued dancing. The crowd went wild once again they showed a freestyle at the end. I'm so happy right now. I can now confirm that I like her. I mean, I love her.

As she is about to dance again and reach the second chorus, I saw a familiar figure, I think it's her friend. I think her name is Antonnia.

Ronin also noticed her but then Antonnia left and ran away.

Ronin's POV

I stopped for a moment from dancing when I saw Antonnia. Why is she crying?

Fortunately, I managed to end the dance and people cheered loudly.

"Do you like what I did there?"

I asked Sam because after the performance I guided her back in our table. However, I'm really uncomfortable when Antonnia saw me. I think that being with Sam felt wrong.

"I love it, Ronin. You really dance so cool."

I think Sam noticed my sudden change of mood. I wanted to go after to Antonnia, but I don't want to be rude and leave Sam.

"I think you need to go after her. You're so obvious Ronin that you like your friend, Antonnia."

I look at her apologetically. I don't want to leave Sam. I don't want to hurt her. But a part of me is worried for my best friend.

"It's always her right? That's why every time we went together it seems that you're controlling your actions."

"I...I'm sorry Sam. It is just...she's...I still have feelings for her."

"I know and it's fine. I like you Ronin and I wanted to be brave and express it to you. It hurts though that we are not even starting yet, but you already want to end between us."

I saw Sam crying. I hugged her.

"I also like you Sam. You're beautiful, talented, and even have a big heart for others. I also don't want to hurt you. It is just..."

"You don't have to explain, Ronin. It's fine."

I drove her to her mansion. When she said her parting words and about to get out of the car, I held her hand.

I leaned closer and kissed her forehead.

"Sam, thank you for hanging out with me. I enjoyed every moment with you. I hope we can still be friends."

"Of course, Ronin. We are friends and I gladly accept it if that's the only relationship you could give to me. I'll be grateful. Thank you for making me happy tonight."

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Instead of going home, I drove to Antonnia's condo. I pressed the buzzer at her door, and luckily, she opened it. Her eyes were still red, fresh from crying. I didn't waste any time and hugged her tightly. Samantha made me realize that I'm still not over her.

"I miss you so much, Ann. I'm sorry about earlier... I didn't mean to..."

"It's fine. Ronin, I'm glad to hear that you missed me because I miss you so much. I hate you for avoiding me. It hurts so much that I keep crying every time I miss you."

I caressed her back and kissed her forehead. She smiled at my gesture. I looked into her eyes and wiped her tears with my thumb. As I glanced at her lips, I could no longer resist and kissed her slowly.

I knew she had already broken up with Michael, so we weren't cheating. I also sensed that she was a bit shocked by what I did. I tried to kiss her again, but she didn't return the kiss.

I thought we really had something, an unspoken love for each other, yet she slowly pushed me away.

"It's getting late, Ronin. You should go home."

"I love you, Antonnia. I still love you. I've loved you since we were young. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Please give me a chance."

Antonnia's POV

I went to the bar resort where my best friends and I used to go. However, I got extremely jealous when I saw Ronin dancing with Samantha. I noticed that Ronin saw me too, and her eyes were filled with longing and shock. I just went home and cried.

But then, I saw Ronin again at my doorstep. She confessed her feelings and kissed me. I wanted to return the kiss, but every time I remembered that she is a woman, I couldn't bring myself to kiss her back.

I have always wanted a family and to have kids in the future. Although I am aware of the IVF process, I still want my children to be my own flesh and blood with my partner. So, I slowly pushed her away.

Ronin's POV

"Is it because I'm a lesbian and not a real guy? Is it because I cannot give you the dream family you wanted, Ann?"

She cried as she looked at me. She appeared so vulnerable yet still beautiful. I knew I couldn't fulfill her desires, and I didn't want to take away her dreams. I understood that she had not grown up in a stable family; she was her father's illegitimate child, which had caused strife between him and her stepmother. Her stepmother favored her sister over her. Despite my reassurances that it wasn't her fault, still, she dreamed of the family she wants. I understood why she longed for a family of her own flesh and blood.

"It's okay, Ann. Don't worry about hurting me. I understand, and I won't stand in the way of your dream. I'm sorry for avoiding you these past few weeks."

"I love you, Ronin. It's just..."

"It's okay, Ann. Please don't cry. You know I hate seeing you like this. Maybe someday, if things change, I hope you can love me too. Don't worry, I'll always be your best friend."

I kissed her forehead once more. After a brief conversation, I left.