HIS HOME - a saga of love

chapter 4

He is Naksh Sighania my senior and My crush ( and my future boyfriend according to everyone).

"Hy boss" I said him with a nervous smile. His gentle touch on my shoulders making me happy yet nervous through hell.

He smiled at me and released my shoulder.
He looked at me with a stern look and cross his hands across his chest and asked

"Why are you running like that?"

I came from my dreamy life and looked here and there and said to him without looking at him

"Rohan snatched my tiffin box and ran. And I ran after him to catch him. And then I collide with you...."

"So you brought something delicious that's why he ran with the box" he said lightly laughing.

I hide my face looking at ground. I feeling his gaze on me it makes me feel something everytime I looked into his eyes but I never able to looked in his eyes.

"Hmmm, it's indeed delicious" i looked up hearing Rohan's voice he stand there placing one elbow on Naksh shoulder and held tiffin in other hand, chewing food happily

"You...stop there you monkey" I said irritatingly and he stopped chewing his food.

He took tiffin in front of Naksh and said innocently "you should try these. Our Aarushi is the best cook"

I looked hesitated and he looked at me and said
"You enjoy your food I went to grab some coffee"

Rohan said ok and shrugged his shoulder and went there where we sit.

When I also going after him Naksh stopped me by saying

"Do you want some coffee?" I looked at him confusing and he rubbed his back of neck and said " I mean if you are free can we grab some coffee"?

He looked at me innocently. I wanted to go we both know we have some feeling for eachother but my life conditions doesn't allowed me to fall for anyone. I wanted to protect him so I have to neglect his feeling and repress mine too.

"Hmmm, no other time. You continue with your friends" I said him and his smile fall but he compose and nodded and bid me bye and left.

I looked at his retrieving figure and then I came back where we sit in garden.

My three best friends looking at me with hopeful eyes. I looked at them and sit beside them with a huff.

"Why you both didn't accept your feelings?" Samaira asked me with a concern. She knows I like him too but something was there which stopped me.

"Does it so obvious?" I asked them

"Obviously it's written on your faces. Even blind person told you that you like eachother" Palak said with a obvious looked.

I looked at the ground and playing with grass and said in slow voice
"No its not like that I'm just his junior that's all"

But in reality i know the reason behind which I'm not accepting the fact that he likes me. It's looking in his eyes his emotions care love for me but  I'm not for love. Love is prohibited in my life. I'm hard to love and importantly my past doesn't gave me permission to loved by someone. My dark traumatic life only gave facade in his life and i don't want to hurt him. He is so pure for that dark world of mine so it's better that I hide my feeling so I save him from hurting.

"We are with you Aaru, with your every decision but please don't neglect your feelings" Palak said me and held my hand. I looked at them I knew them they all are with me always. I gave them a smile and snatch by tiffin back from Rohan and ate it while laughing and teasing eachother. They are my comfort zone it will be those moments when I laugh wholeheartedly without any worry.