HIS HOME - a saga of love

chapter 21

Aarushi's pov

GUNNN....it making me afraid from my soul. I know he had one and I saw gun daily in his hands when he ready to go to his  office or In his bodyguards hands but it make difference. How he put gun on someone's head easily. Didn't his soul asked him questions? I know he is a billionaire and as he had some rivals too but it doesn't mean you point out gun on any head.

I tried hard to not to cry or shout at that moment when he pointed  the gun on my head. It's terrifying from core. But when he asked about the beverage option making me surprised. Is he for real? How he casually ask for drink took other person on gun point. I composed myself and tell him my decision. But does it really my future between guns bodyguards bulky men and a terrified husband. He is handsome totally a male lead Character from a romantic novel but no I didn't want this habits in my husband. Actually I didn't want a husband.

I took glances of him when he make cold coffee. He look devilishly handsome if I marry him with my consent I kiss him hug him tightly talked to him but it will not happen with me. I saw some bruises on his knuckles. But why? He went for meeting than why this?

I make him agree for my cooking I can't sit whole day and do nothing. Ok I have injury but before no one there to care for me anything so when he do all this I feel blessed but afraid for something bad at the same time. When he kissed on my forehead or my cheeks I feel overwhelmed I want this feelings. Want to threw everything back and live this moment with him.

I tried to form words to how I asked him about meeting with Naksh. He was a part of my life and I like him I didn't want that he hurt from my act and hated the feelings of love in his whole life. I'm sad confused about all of this but when he called me "moon" and I looked in his direction my heart beating fastly making me to jump and hug him. Her sharp jawline and brown eyes shine in moonlight. The words did something in me which I didn't feel early. It's happy sad confused surprised trying to jump but trying to control. Shit I hate when things become confusing.

I control my inner turmoil and tell him and asked him about to meet Naksh. I tried hard to not to hurt him and not to wake his inner devil which I saw earlier. But surprisingly he listen me patiently.

"Did you said yes to him if he proposed you?" His one question put me in a courtyard.
"No" I tell him but the real answer in unknown by everyone how I tell him that I'm of no use. I didn't deserve to be someone, someone's girlfriend wife or anything. I'm not my dark past didn't gave me permission to feel in love or to be loved by someone.

I tried to choose my words carefully thus it didn't hurt him or making him insecure. Somehow I manage to not to cry but some lone tears betrayed me and escape he come forword to wipe him but I backward from his touch. It will be hurt him but it's good for both of us.

When I told him to sleep here on bed I didn't expect this happen. Her strong collagen are so masculine and intoxicated. I wanted to feel this life long but alas I didn't. When our faces are an inch apart our breathing mingles with eachother it's so intimidating. It's somehow intoxicated my soul.

Here he sleep besides me laying on his stomach his hairs are on his forhead his thick eyebrows relaxed. I seriously ogling him.

"Why you didn't sleep? It's already so late. You should sleep Moon" he asked me.

He care for me his words actions totally show care from me. No one care about my sleeping schedule beside my parents earlier  when they told me to sleep early I make an excuse to study. But the real reason are unknown from everyone it hide and engrave in deep in my soul.