UNTOLD LIE: LOVE AND HATRED.

What the heart wants

"Miss Kang, can I see you in my office" said the principal. I sat down in his office. "I'm sorry to tell you this but your parents passed away in a car accident this afternoon"

[...]I got to the funeral home. Tears left and right. It's not fair to be honest. They don't even know what kind of people they were. They only know the masks that they use to cover up who they really were. Grandma didn't know the things that dad did to mom and yet she still cries. Uncle didn't know the things that mom did to me and he still cries. No one in this room knows how they ruined me and yet, they still cry as if they know what they did to me.

I woke up. Ugh, that dream again. I look again. It's my dorm but it doesn't feel familiar. Wait. Why am I in his bed.

"Good morning" he says with a grin on his face. "I made breakfast"

I looked confused as the memories came back to me slowly. Bob, the juice, the dance, Bob's hands. I put my hands on my head and shook my head. " I need to take a shower" I say. I try to get up from the bed and suddenly, I felt dizzy. I almost fell to the ground but I managed to hold the bed frame right on time.

"Whoa, be careful. The drug hasn't worn off yet" he said with a grin on his face, bringing the porridge towards me and putting it down on the table. He pushes me slightly which makes me sit on his bed and carries my leg to lay me down. He puts a pillow on my back and tucks me in like a baby. He brings the porridge and says with a playful tone "Do you want me to feed you too?". I snatch the spoon from him and start eating. I was so weak it had to use all my energy to pick my hand up to feed myself.

He just stands their leaning on the bed frame with the same grin that he had earlier.

"What?" I say looking at him.

"Nothing" he says turning around and heads to the kitchen. I look for my phone and realize that I have 19 miss calls from Bhayyih. I call her and it didn't take her a second to answer

"Sujin, what the hell" she says "I thought you were dead."

"Sorry, can I come over and tell you what happened in person," I say. Now, I can fell Rickys eyes on me.

"Of course," she says and hang up the phone. I quickly finish the food.

I put the plate down on the table and take the blanket off. I sit up straight and force myself to stand up. Okay, it's not that bad.

I try and take a step but the same feeling I had earlier came two times worse, this time, I couldn't handle it and fell to the ground.

"I told you to stay in bed" says Ricky yelling from the kitchen. Asshole. I try to pick myself up from the ground, but I was too weak. Suddenly, I felt warm hands raping around my arms and picking me up from the ground. "You know, you could just ask for help" says Ricky.

"Not happening" I say.

He scoffs and guides me to the bathroom and says "Take a shower first and I'll help you go to Bahyyih's dorm." He closes the door and I was left their standing in the middle of the bathroom trying to prosses everything.

I took at least 30 minutes I the shower. When I finish, I put my cloths that I brought from my closet earlier and get out. I'm still very weak and can't walk without support- I barely made it out if the bathroom alive.

When I finally opened the door, Ricky got up from the couch and helped me get to the bed. He stood behind me and held both of my arms guiding me gently. "I'll help you get to Bahhyiy's dorm" he says.

Normally, I would strongly oppose but do I really have a choice. I can't even lift my hand properly. I just look at him and roll my eyes. I guess he took my silence as a yes because he waited for me to get my bag full of snakes and beers before opening the door for me.

He was holding the door open for me but my weak legs guided me toward him instead. He looked confused - I was too. I look at him in the eyes. He tilts his head. I didn't notice how tall he is until know. "Thank you" I said "For last night and for to day as well" I said. He smirks and says "Anytime"

I walk out of the dorm and he puts his hands on my arm like he did when he was guiding me to the bed.

I looked terrible. I was pale and so small and when I was walking through the hallways, all eyes were on me. I can also where whispers all around me. "Why is everyone staring" I asked Ricky with a soft voice.

He leaned down "Maybe it's because you're so pretty". I hit him once on his side "Ow" He says before chuckling.

"Very funny" I say. "But really why is everyone staring" I asked.

"It doesn't matter" He says before leaning forward again and whispering in my ears "It's just me and you for now"

What the fuck is going on with my heart.