Sweet Cheeks | Personal/Rant

story time

So, I like to sometimes over share things in my life. Mostly stuff I feel comfortable sharing. But 2 months ago I was on a date.

I wanna talk about it because it was my first date and it was a shit date.

So, I was in college and it was lunch time. I was mindlessly scrolling on twitter, waiting for my friend until this man came to me.

Said he liked my outfit, I said thank you wondering what else he wanted. Then he said I looked pretty and asked if he could have my number.

I will say, I felt more confident that day that I got a compliment, I'm not gonna lie there.

I did find him attractive, but didn't feel totally safe giving him my number....due to some experience that I won't get into. So I said I'll give him my Snapchat.

He told me I could just say no, but I said no I want to talk to you just don't feel totally safe with giving strangers my number.

We started talking before I had to go to class. I was shaking, it's been awhile since someone asked me out....4 years, well I did talk to someone last year and that was a shit show.

We mostly talked through text and planned to meet again on the weekend. We were getting to know each other and it was fun.

Then I started seeing some red flags....to me.

The first one, he said he smokes weed with his friends. He said he also vapes but I know everyone around my age vapes even though I do prefer someone who doesn't vape. But with weed I don't want someone who does that.

It stinks and it isn't cool same with vaping, that shit just makes you look silly.

Then he said his last relationship was 6 months ago, yes some people do move on quite quickly I am not one of those people. Neither is he.

Why? Because after I asked when his last relationship was, he started bitching about her pretty much showing me he hasn't loved on.

Then we get onto the date because I want to know what he was like in person.

He was ahead of me, not next to me, ahead of me. We mostly went to shops where he liked. Like we went into a men's shop that stinks of b.o, then went to a jewellery shop thinking I would like that.

He didn't ask if I would like to be there, he just went and said he stands out like a sore thumb before I said let's go elsewhere. Because that place isn't for me and I fucking told him what I liked.

By the way another thing I forgot to mention, it was mostly me asking the question to get to know him better, he didn't ask shit and when he did it was when I kept asking him if he had any questions.

Then on the day we didn't talk, he said he had lots of questions but forgot them all, and yes I get the nerves can make you forget but I still had questions and asked him again if he had any for me.

We went to McDonald's to eat since both of us are college students. I paid.

This was the point I fully knew, he isn't the one for me and said to him many, many times I don't see this going anywhere.

But he kept saying that I can plan the next date and I just kept saying I don't see us going anywhere except friends.

Then I walked home, ranted to my parents and told him once more I don't want to continue this and we haven't talked since.

Kinda thankful I had shitty partners and shitty friends to quickly see the red flags in people, save myself another heartbreak.

I just wanted to rant plus haven't posted anything on this book in over a year.

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