The Stupid Closet

5

"Hey, you wanna go for a walk?" Draco asks you.

"Sure, that sounds nice" You smile. You drop off the stuff at Draco's dorm and head back out, walking to the library in the process.

"So you wanna tell me what's going on?" Draco asks immediately, not wasting any time.

"What do you mean?" You ask.

Draco stops walking and turns to you as you stop too, "you can be honest with me."

You loved Draco so much and were really grateful for him being your best friend but you also knew that that meant he knew you better than anyone else.

"Draco, nothing is happening." He looked into your eyes, furrowing his brows.

"I don't believe you." He states, "I saw the way Mattheo looked at you before he left."

"It's nothing, I promise. He just said something that Theo didn't like the other night, that's all" You shrug, only telling half the truth. He didn't need to know about the shared kisses.

He takes a long pause before responding, "Alright, fine. But you can come to me, you know that right?"

You smile gently before nodding, "Yeah I know, thank you."

You walk up to the library doors, stopping just outside.

"I promised Pansy I'd help her with the Transfiguration homework that's due tomorrow, wanna join?"

"Oh no, I think I'm gonna head back to the house actually. Thanks though." You smile before Draco enters the library, leaving you alone in the hallway.

You walk back to the Slytherin house. The common room is surprisingly empty. You look to your right to see Mattheo working at a desk by himself.

"Hi." You say as you walk up, leaning against the desk to get him to stop working.

"Hi." Mattheo responds, watching you.

"Were you talking about me earlier?" You blurt out.

"When? You have to be more specific." Mattheo responds, smirking.

"Earlier at lunch you said that Theo doesn't appreciate what he has. Was that about me?" You ask urgently. You had to know.

"So what if it was?" The smirk drains from his face as he responds back with a question.

"Matty. I'm serious." You look at him for a moment, him not giving a response, "Look, if it was about me, you can't just say stuff like that" Mattheo is looking at the lamp on the desk, contemplating.

"I meant what I said. He doesn't." He looks over to you, dead serious.

"Mattheo please. He does..." You trail off.

"Not like he should." He mutters out quietly, "If I had you I-"

"But you don't. Theo does. Theo has me." You respond. Whatever was happening between you two, it had to stop. You enjoyed not hating each other anymore but you were in a relationship with Theo and you had to honor that.

"What are you doing here?" Mattheo asks.

Someone walks in the common room, you pause and watch them until they go into their dorm.

"You have to understand that my mind is going in a million places right now. I've kissed you. Several times in fact and naked, while I've been with Theo. That's cheating. I cheated on Theo and I have to live with that." You start rambling.

"You ramble when you're upset." Mattheo says. He thinks for a moment before standing up, just inches away from you.

"Just say the words and I'll stay away. I'll let you and Theo have the perfect little relationship you think you have and I won't get in the way."

You stare into his eyes, trying your hardest to not get lost in them, "I want that." You whisper. You couldn't even convince yourself that you meant what you were saying.

"Fine." Mattheo grabbed his books on the desk and walked off not looking back this time.

You felt a single tear start streaming down your face, you wiping it with your arm before more follow. This is what you wanted, you wanted Theo. Not Mattheo.

You go back to your dorm and spend the rest of the afternoon trying to study but you had a hard time focusing. You hadn't talked to Theo since he stormed out of lunch so you were worried about that as well.

Pansy comes back from her studying to change for dinner, grabbing you along. You weren't even hungry, probably from stress. You're convinced that sitting in the same room as Theo and Mattheo would kill you.

You get to dinner, sitting down next to Theo.

"Hey"

"Hey" Theo responds, smiling softly. You return the smile as he places his hand on your thigh. After he does that, you look over to see Mattheo watching you, clenching his jaw enough to notice. You look away before you regret it.

Throughout the entire dinner, Theo seemed normal, no longer upset about what happened at lunch. Him and Mattheo had been best friends since year one of Hogwarts and while they could butt heads sometimes, they were always there for each other. You just hoped that nothing would ever come between them.

You head back to the Slytherin house with the group, staying in the common room with Theo, everyone else splitting up. Theo sits on the velvet green couch next to the fire, you sitting next to him, leaning in.

"You know I really like you right?" You ask as you yawn.

"I really like you too." Theo responds. You lay your head on his shoulder, listening to the fire crackle.

After about 20 minutes, Theo rubs your arm, waking you up, "Hey let's go to bed".

You yawn as you get up and start walking to your dorm. When you reach your dorm door, Theo pecks you in the lips, "Goodnight cara mia"

"Goodnight Theo". You watch him walk to his dorm. When he opens the door, Mattheo walks out with a cigarette and a lighter. He stops in the hall, looking at you.

You smile gently but this time, he doesn't return the smile, just averting his eyes elsewhere before walking away.

You enter your room, Pansy painting her toes, sitting on her bed. You immediately change and get ready for bed, desperately needing a full night of sleep.

Today has felt like one of the longest days in a long time and you haven't been this mentally exhausted in a while. You could only hope that at least the next few days would be easier.

You fall asleep quickly, Pansy going to bed shortly after you.

"Mattheo I need help with this, I can't get it" You say trying to tighten the back of your corset dress.

Mattheo walks up behind you, placing his hands on your shoulders for a second, "Hey, I'm glad I'm here with you" he whispers in your ear before moving his hands to the corset, pulling it tight and tying it.

He hugs you from the back after he's done, "I love you sweet girl"

"I love you too Matty." You spin around in his arms, standing on your tippy toes to reach him, connecting your lips with his.

This kiss was slow, passionate, and sweet. You pull back, "They're gonna love you" you smile before continuing, "Not as much as I do though"

Mattheo was meeting your parents.

You could tell he was nervous, not being sure what to say or do.

"Seriously Mattheo, they will adore you. I adore you." You say, holding his cheek as he smiles.

You wake up, the sun blaring in your dorm window. You look around, seeing Pansy in the bathroom.

"Good, you're finally up! Good dream huh?" Pansy asks, spraying herself with perfume.

The thing was...it was a good dream. A great dream even. But you couldn't say that because it was with Mattheo, not your boyfriend. Shit.