The Stupid Closet

12

"Hey" Theo smiles when he looks up and sees you walking in.

"Hi", you smile back. You sit on the arm of the couch, next to where Draco is sitting.

"Where've you been?" Theo asks.

"Oh I had a hangover so I went for a walk." You respond. You can feel Draco's eyes on you. He knew something was up.

"Well I'm glad you're ok. Wanna go hang out? I'm done with school work for today." He asks.

"Oh uh- I actually have some work to do before dinner but can we talk? Privately?" You ask, standing up.

"Sure" Theo stands up and you two walk outside of the Slytherin house.

You felt a large sense of anxiety as you thought about how to approach this.

"What'd you want to talk about?" Theo asks as you walk down the hallway.

"Ok uhm-" you stop walking and pull Theo to the side, "I care about you so much but...I think we should take a break." You say.

"You're breaking up with me?" Theo furrows his eyebrows.

"No I just, I don't know, I think we could use some time apart to make sure of what we really want." You shrug.

"What we really want? I want you" Theo raises his voice a bit.

"Theo please. I really think we need this." You say quietly.

You couldn't tell him the real reason why. Not right now, not yet.

Theo looks between your eyes for a moment before responding, "fine."

He starts walking away until you grab his arm, "Theo hold on. I'm still your girlfriend, I just need a little space."

"Why? You were all over me just last night"

You didn't know how to respond, "I don't know what I want anymore." You respond simply. You weren't lying but you weren't telling the whole truth either.

"Yeah well when you figure it out, let me know." He says before he walks off. You let him walk away this time. After he walks back into the Slytherin house, you bury your head in your hands, rubbing your eyes.

You had a massive headache and it wasn't from the drinks you had last night.

You lingered in the hallway, feeling ashamed. This was so messy and that's exactly what you wanted to avoid. But...you didn't regret it. Mattheo was so frustrating sometimes but you really wanted to be with him.

You go back inside to your dorm and work on school work for a bit before dinner. You were nervous about going but you knew you had to.

You and Pansy walk down to the great hall together. When you go inside, you see both Theo and Mattheo sitting on one side, leaving the seats between Draco and Daphne open.

You take a seat next to Draco, Pansy sitting down on the other side of you.

You look up and see Mattheo watching you closely. Theo follows your gaze over to Mattheo and looks back to you for a moment. You can hear him scoff lightly but he doesn't say anything.

"So uh Halloween is coming up soon, are you guys ready for the party?" You ask, trying to change the subject.

"Hell yeah, Halloween is always one of the best parties of the year" Blaise brings up as he takes a bite of his food.

"I always leave that party early to fuck someone" Theo says casually.

You look over at him with your mouth slightly agape. He was definitely trying to make you jealous but instead it was just pissing you off.

"Well...." Pansy starts, slowly looking over to you.

"We're actually on a break." Theo interrupts, clenching his jaw, looking into your eyes.

You can feel Mattheo's eyes on you but you don't dare look back.

"What? Why?" It seems like everyone at the table asks.

"I'll let you answer." Theo says, motioning to you.

"Oh uh-" you hesitate before continuing, "We just think the space would be good for us."

"No, not we. You." Theo states before dropping his fork onto his plate and leaving. You watch him walk out the doors before shifting your eyes to Mattheo.

You maintain eye contact as you apologize, "I'm sorry guys." You look around at the table, seeing the rest of the group looking at you.

You stand up and walk out, heading for the astronomy tower. You needed air and you knew Theo wouldn't be up there, he hates the tower.

You reach the top and walk forward, grabbing onto the railing, looking out at the sky. You take a couple deep breaths trying to calm down when you feel a hand on your back.

You turn to the side to see Mattheo standing there, "are you ok?" He asks.

"No." You respond back, shaking your head. The wind was blowing at the moment, your hair blowing onto your face.

"Theo's a dick, I'm sorry you had to sit through that." He mentions, not moving his hand off your back.

You turn towards him, " I want to be with you." You blurt it out with no second thought.

"You don't have to decide that right now." Mattheo responds.

"But I did. That's what I want." You respond quickly. Are you making a mistake? Maybe but you were certain of what you wanted, you had just been lying to yourself.

Mattheo eyes soften as you look into them until you breathe out, "kiss me."

He looks at you hesitantly, "what about-?" before you tilt your head, insisting.

Mattheo pulls you to him, your bodies touching now. His hand remains on your back while the other one finds its place over your ear, wrapping to the back of your neck.

You both look between each other's eyes and lips for a moment before you connect your lips with his.

Your eyes flutter shut and you lean into the kiss, the taste of Mattheo's lips almost intoxicating.

Your hand finds its way into Mattheo's hair, your fingers combing through his curls. The kiss carries on for a while until you both back away to take a breath.

"Let's do this, I want to be with you." You say, pulling at his tie.

"Woah, hold on." He says pulling you away, "let's slow down yeah?"

"Why? I want you, you want me" you start rambling.

"Hey." Mattheo grabs your chin, stopping you. You look into his eyes as he continues, "We have plenty of time. I'm not going to let you regret anything."

"God, how do you always know what to say?" You ask, backing away and sitting down against the railing.

Mattheo sits down next to you. You look over to him before starting, "I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize." Mattheo shakes his head.

This felt unreal. You and Mattheo were...unexpected but this felt right. You wouldn't want to be with anyone else.

Your mind started to wander. How long has this been going on? Maybe you were blissfully unaware but love...that's a strong feeling to just come on quickly and out of nowhere. You couldn't help but ask him.