After the Shooting Stops

Family Ties and True Love

Zola's POV

My mommy is gone because she was killed by an evil man and everyone around me is crying. I don't cry because my mommy was always strong and I want to be just like her. I decide to walk over to the chair that is next to Auntie Cris and climb up it so I am at her height so she won't have to lean down to talk to me.

"Yang stop crying and go round on the patients now! Stevens go with her to make sure she does everything correctly so I won't have to fix it. Chief, don't you have a hospital to run because McDreamy is obviously not able to! Chirpy one and Torres go check on the tiny humans! Kepner and Pretty Boy go help check on the patients now as well! Army dude go check on trauma then on surgical now! Bailey make sure your stupid interns don't mess anything up, if they do give them a week of scut. Army Gal get me Evil Spawn's chart and I will go make sure Evil Spawn is still alive and is okay along with Courtney. Jeez, does everyone think this hospital can run itself? Get to work now!" I yell getting annoyed with everyone in this room. Everyone just looks at me in shock then some of them slowly exit to room to hopefully do what I said.

"Okay, here is his chart," Teddy says as she hands me his binder.

"Can I come with you two?" Aunt Amelia asks.

"Yes, and thank you for the chart," I say as I grab Courtney's hand and pull her out of the room with Aunt Amelia following close behind us.

Derek's POV

Meredith is dead. Meredith is dead. These three words repeat themselves over and over again in my head, but it still is hard to believe. I feel as if at any second someone will jump up and say that this is all a joke and that she isn't really dead. Though as more and more time passes any hope that he had inside him of this happening begins to diminish until all he is left with is the truth. Meredith is gone and she is never coming back. I will never accidently bump into her in the hallways. She will never get to tuck Zola or Courtney in at night. I will never get to hug her or kiss her again. She is gone never to return.

There had been so many obstacles that they had had to face to get to the point that they are now, so much wasted time. I had wasted the little time I had with her choosing Addison over her, choosing Rose over her, and so many other things. I now regret all these stupid little decisions I had made and wished I could get a do over. A do over to divorce Addison after I had found Meredith. A do over to not choose Rose over Meredith. I wish that she could just come back right now so I could apologize for everything that I ever did wrong to her.

I don't know how I'm going to live with myself not saying goodbye and having her die to save me. She shouldn't have done that; she had so much to live for. She was a gifted surgeon, a fantastic mother, a loyal friend, and so many other things that I had adored about her. She was too loyal, and willing to give everything up to save one of her loved ones. I should have made her exit the hospital when she had a chance, but instead this happened. If she hadn't done that he would not have been here; breathing and living right now, but he no longer felt as if he was alive. How can he live without the thing that it is impossible to live with out. How can breath with out his breath of fresh air. He realizes that it is going to be hard to go on in life with out her, but he owes it to her to try because it is because of her he has the opportunity. He loves...loved Meredith in a way he will never forget; she was his one true love. They were meant to be.